my life is just cluttered.

i jus feel like crying now. its getting further and further away from me =/ he's not anywhere near this blog now. so lucky he wont see this soon, or maybe never, im not sure. but anyways, tonight felt really cold. the ambience of the laughter and 'warmness' jus wasn there. Even on some nights, where there were awkward silence, the feeling was still there. but now i suppose its gone. sighs. okay done with my emoness :(
oral was scary, but i got over it. hahas some people had to fight over some teachers! I got Zhu Lao Shi! hehe and for english i got some science teacher, i think Mrs Yeo..not Vivian Yeo though. The other one...i think she was the one that told me off during SA's when i was whispering to Venice when the paper was not collected yet =X hehe
Then tomorrow I have to go for some crap contingent thing at GGS. If i survived Dryland today, of course i can survive that boring thing. And gawd. dryland! it was fun for the first time hahas. we did 2sets, then we did another dif thing which was fun. hahas Fran kept on tripping! but well practice makes perfect? and the back of my shirt was all wet! hahas. kk ttyl
Hugs (:

memories

i dunno wad happened to the fonts thingy hahas anyways, this song made me think alot. hahas

Whenever you Remember, Carrie Underwood:


When you look back on times we had
I hope you smile
And know that through the good and through the bad
I was on your side when nobody could hold us down
We claimed the brightest star
And we, we came so far
And no they won't forget

[Chorus]
Whenever you remember times gone by
Remember how we held our heads so high
When all this world was there for us
And we believed that we could touch the sky
Whenever you remember, I'll be there
Remember how we reached that dream together
Whenever you remember

When you think back on all we've done
I hope you're proud
When you look back and see how far we've come
It was our time to shine
And nobody could hold us down
They thought they'd see us fall
But we, we stood so tall
And no we won't forget

Whenever you remember times gone by
Remember how we held our heads so high
When all this world was there for us
And we believed that we could touch the sky
Whenever you remember, I'll be there
Remember how we reached that dream together
Whenever you remember

Yeah, Oh

We claimed the brightest star
And we, we came so far
You know that we, we showed them all
And no they won't forget

Yeah

Whenever you remember times gone by
Remember how we held our heads so high
When all this world was there for us
And we believed that we could touch the sky
Whenever you remember, I'll be there
Remember how we reached that dream together
Whenever you remember

Whenever you remember

Oh, whenever you remember

SS501 on variety show hahas

hahas man today dam tired. anyways hahas watch this its reall funny. well at least to me! lynn has the part 3 i think!

hugs<3

Founder's day!!...and the service -.-

Today is FOUNDER'S DAY!! hahas i dunno why im so happy for that, as its jus another ordinary day. but oh wells. Yesterday, the service was really OMG...NOT cos its great, but cos it really bored me to the core. I looked around the Auditorium, and guess wad- some people were already sleeping. It nearly bored me to death.
Luckily, the service was in the M E Lau Hall hahas so like the VIP's cant see us, but we can see them on the screen lol ;)
At the dinner tonight, i hope it won't be as boring as i have heard for the last few years. But, on the bright side we get to see wat the teachers look like outside class hope the cam wont die out on me! plus, LOL i will be taking pics and it would be posted on fb so dun worry! and maybe some here ((: YES I KNOW some people cant imagine me in a dress..thanks alot hor! hahas yea true but i'll take it as a compliment though hehe anyways we'll jus have to wait and see what happens.
signing off (: hugs <3

never give up (:

SCHOOL NATS- i totally screwed up my 50m back individuals on the first day!..but then my weird technique/ theory of nail polish did work on the second day! hahas totally improved! so happy! and did better for 50m back in the relay ((: , and my 50m free!! hahas so proud of it too!!
then, while i was at SSS, in school was nearly a havoc. But, luckily now is fine ;) and hahas Ms Soh made me realised that the class only change into their pinafore when there is prefects LOl..hahas..so in other words, they had an advantage of 2 days..hmmm lol
Later, going for jaan's party! hahas im not sure what expression to take there though. anyways gtg (:
hugs <3

im just happy you did not lie to me...and play with my feelings again like you did the last time...

the day is ending.

wow. school nats in 2days. we even have to bring our ODT there -.-...sighs...and im a loner in training, at least ml has random guys around the pool to talk to...if only i was not primary school. But other than being a loner, after training is fun(:anyways, i have been literally dying in school..have been sleeping at 11.30 these past few nights =/ i need my sleep! so yea lol.
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im not sure if im still the one..

wow. and the day is still on..

hehe firstly, HAPPY HAPPY B'DAE RISHI !!..hehe for like the 6th time?? lol WE ALL LUV YOU!! hahas..PS esp yangyang hehe ;) this morning was kinda the most interesting sunday in the past few weeks lol...really funny too =X ben says its fun cos he was there -.-
then comes tuition...it was okay, but nearly died as i was so tired =X guilty*
OHOH..then oh my..AAG how leh?...looks like i got to turn down the opportunity of an international competition :( sad...3k leh for jus one event!..alot of ppl say not worth it =/..and also preliums..sighs. ookie hahas anyways take care (:
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Ms Desporado?

Aww man. I jus realised last night that i have 3 freakin blue-blacks on my leg...due to the plunge on sun -.-"
hehe anyways, i have to post now as i dunno if i'll be able to post at night. so wadevr happens at training, i jus have to face it?? Today was soooo funny!! hahahs im proud of you jo-lene ((: for making nic get a taste of her own medicine...haahahas she was soooo emo, and a hypocrite! sighs* at least it has cooled down liao ;) aiyo. one tip- love cant be forced. hehe..sigh anyways, i sian liao. have to learn ting xie and do math and more math...k byebye
hugs <3

youth day = not what i expected?

since this is the only place i prefer to complain to =/. if you readers dun wanna carry on its fine. jus close this tab.
today was so supposed to be fun rite??:( okay lets call the person CZ. freak her lor. she keeps comparing me to Ml...i mean wth?!and she says i dun put in any effort in training, only 30%. walioaw lor. I put in effort, and my best k. Making the effort to go all the way to the other side of singapore just for training is already taking up alot of my time. And WORST OF ALL. She judges a book by its cover, according to her theory- if your face is red, that means you put in effort and you 'cong'. But then if your face is not, she would critisize you all kinds of crap and say u dun put in any effort. SO wtf!? Then she went on to the times i train per week and again compared me to him. ugh frustrating man. sighs* really sorry for today's post of me complaining =X To be honest, if everyday's training would be like that from now on, i would prefer to stay in school for the whole day. literally. But for the sake of school nats in 10days, i would 'jian chi sia' and bear with it...
k hugs (:

uhuh...

man haven posted in 4days lol..no time lah sorry..anyways,
Training- hehe it was fun as usual!!ohoh..and i was soo smart today tht i plunged into the lane rope>>seriously, INTO THE LANEROPE.we were doing this relay where u have to start in the water and get up to plunge..unfortunately, i suck i suppose, that i even had a red line from my knee up to my thigh, that looks like a cane mark -.- it hurts okay!..hahas then yea i was happy for friday's set hehe (: but i got suaned as usual by hobbit and other..and whats with the chickens? sighs??..hahas no la. i kinda actually dun mind..thats part of wad makes the session 'livelier' hahas.
School- on thursday, i actually forgotten about my homework that was due on fri..omg..thts wad i get when i get distracted by the com=X but in the end, i managed to finish as i did some on thurs during recess ;)AND, in the morning for traffic, we had to wear that stuffy mask!!..and we all look ridiculous in it XD no offence? Then we have this ss project which lin-low took the easiest part! lol jk
Weekends/others- gosh i recently found this show on youtube, Devil Beside You, WHICH GOT ME ADDICTED...darn you!..jkjk..actually it's my fault :'( i get distracted too easily =X hahas but anyways, the show teaches me alot of morals in life..sighs* man i feel like hugging them both everytime i watch the nice parts LOL ;)
k anyways, hahas take care (:
hugs <3

its never too late

heyhey! yes i know my posts can be really 'wordy', but hahas okay yea sorry i know i talk to much sometimes...k fine normally...and yea some ppl that are close to me knows tht i talk to myself which freaks them out =X lol..but eh at times it was cos i suppose to talk to u but some ppl jus thought i was crazy ;)
Anyways fran is going away this friday so yea have fun at ur trip fran! and i suppose some people might be so sad that they might go emo for mayb a week..sigh..build a bridge and get over it..and okay u might tell me u need time to learn how to build one..hehe k sry im lame..erm yea so hahas good luck with tht?
Today's training, i was so loner lor..i so cant wait for school nats to be over so that i can be with the rest..sighs..i dun feel tht im improving...and after skool nats, there is FOUNDER'S!! omg hahas i cant wait for it! hehe anw dun wanna blog so much (: take care!
hugs ;)