No Good in Goodbye.

People fall in love in mysterious ways.

Don't you think Ed Sheeran looks like Rupert Grint?
BUT ANYWAY I've finally finished watching the whole series of Harry Potter IN ORDER.
And can I say, It was AMAZING. 2001-2011.
There are very few things that I have great feels for when I've finished watching.
First of all time was FRIENDS. Now HP is on the list too.
I realised maybe its because I've watched both series season/movie in order and consecutively, so the relationships formed between the characters make me feel so much for all of them.

ITS OCTOBER OMGAH.
how time flies.

Here I am typing this when I'm supposed to be doing work..yes exams are in 1.5 weeks ):
Have I memorized anything? Nope.
Am I prepared? Obviously nope.
Will I cry in the exam room? Probably.

HAHA.
But no really, how time flies.
It was as if just yesterday was the first day of school.
Somehow, this year passed by like the speed of lightning.
They may say time passes when you're having fun. This ain't the case though..
I can honestly tell you i'm not having as much as my fellow friends back in SG.
I see pictures, I envy them.
I see celebrations that I miss, I envy them.
I see connections, I envy them.
I see memories made, I envy them.

I can't particularly say I hate it here...
My roomie Priya is awesome, and when I mean awesome, its like no other words. I wouldn't think I'll survive in this room without her.
What I've learnt about the Chinese? Like the chinese-chinese?
You can't know when they're genuine. Only the rare few, those shy and those who shun away. Those who wear ordinary clothes that try to hide them instead of make them stand out. When you eventually make an effort to get to know them, they're not really trying to hide, they're just the ones who bother more about their work than attention.

Lovely weather, lovely festivals, but when? with who? The friends you can't tell who are genuine or not?
I can't remember the last time I've laughed like I mean it when I'm out. I miss it. I miss the times when I was genuinely happy everyday and actually looking forward to class because of the people in it (not really the lessons haha).
Now, its like I go to class because I have to, not because I want to. Because I want to achieve that perfect 100% attendance at the end of the year on my cert. Because I can't find any motivation.

Do you know what's it like to lose motivation?
Its one thing when you have friends around you. Its another when you're alone.
And its not as if you can share this feeling.
Those who will mock you for studying too much and tell you to stop talking. Obviously not them.
Those who can't even bother about their studies. Don't even think bout' it.
Those who count on you to perform well. Not the same old stories thanks but no thanks.
Those who takes everything for granted just because they're rich. Nope not you either.
Those who claims everything is easy for me because I'm supposedly smart. I'm not, have you seen the rest back home?
Those who says Australia's stuff is shit easy. Screw you I don't know why I'm friends with you.

I love my friends back home. But i just don't have the energy sometimes. I love their support, but they can't be there always. They've already surpassed their obligation just to talk to me and get to see whatsup with my life here (given that i'm so far plus the time difference- special shout out to Hills who ALWAYS no matter what shits, she always still keeps in contact with me). And i'm thankful for that. I can't ask for more.

In about 3.5 weeks, all of this will be over and I will try to appreciate life abit more.
You have no idea how excited I am to get home (:



Where's the soul in soldier on?

anyeong!