I'm feeling pretty good right now. Like right now at this instance. Only because I've finally finished my much dreaded ECON1203 quiz that I did badly in for the first week. But this week I did..actually pretty well I must say HAHA. So you know how people say don't be too sad if you don't do well the first time you'll do better the next? Yep, I finally understand that feeling- short term of course. I'm sure i'll mess it up again in the following weeks to come, but for now, just bask in my "accomplishment' of 80% (: HAHA
RELIEVED OR STRESSED?
I mean don't get me wrong, i'm still stressed af, with readings piling up and undone revision. But for now, easter break is finally here. You have no idea how much I was looking forward to this week. Even on the last week, I couldn't care much about classes. I was just really excited to have this rest, before the mundane routine starts once again. For now, I can finally breathe. I can finally think clearly. Its like that small glimpse of light you see when you're exiting a tunnel- that small glimmer of hope. I actually think I have a chance to pick myself back up. Now with that, I really hope to keep that motivation and determination to get back on my feet. I hope it won't die out just like how the rain is dampening all our moods for the past two days, putting out the easter spirit. Point is, I really can't give up. But I need to find that balance. To enjoy what I'm studying, while still having fun.
This break is really all about clearing my mind and finding that balance. Speaking of which, I really need a Mac ASAP. Here I am in class scrambling to take down whatever the teacher is talking about (at bullet train speed mind you), hand cramping up, pen slipping from my hand, words slowly becoming incoherent and page running out of space. Moral of the story, I REALLY NEED A COMPUTER. Gosh, how spoilt I sound LOL, and I'm ashamed to say I'm part of that generation that depend too much on technology. The thing about technology- although it connects people around the world, it separates those who are right beside you. Now why do we spend so much time connecting with strangers we don't even know and don't even make an effort to connect with our loved ones? Quite peculiar human behaviour don't you think?
LKY 2015
I'm sad to say that our First Prime Minister Lee Kuan Yew has passed on. In all honesty, I did not know Mr Lee. I just knew him as some figurehead that appeared in our Social Studies textbooks, one of our "founding fathers" as to call it. I never knew his contributions other than the mere founding of PAP. He is one of our greatest leaders who built Singapore into what it is today. But you see, I never questioned how Singapore got here, I just assumed it just is. I never thought to thank the people behind the scenes, I just took my comfortable living for granted. It is ironic how we show the most gratitude only after the passing of the living.
"Dead people receive more flowers than the living ones because the regret is stronger than the gratitude." -Anne Frank's Diary
When things don't go our way, we ask why. But when it does, we don't question anything. Its as if we expect life to suit our needs. Is that what living is about? Why should we expect convenience and happiness to be served to us on a silver platter? Lots of hope, lots of "ifs". There I go questioning life again. Oh lord bless me.
I realised I'm pretty drawn to mysterious people. People who I can't read. Because those are the ones that intrigues me to find out what's under that "calm and composed" exterior. Haha, I should just change my major to Pyschology (I actually wouldn't mind, if only eh?)
anyeong!
I'll crack that shell one day, I'll peel the layers off, one by one.
