All you need is love.

So, I saw him yesterday. And poof, it made my day.
People said I was lame; they said I was wasting my time; they said I was a fool.
A fool yet again, but I was happy, happy to have that feeling again. You have no idea.
I can't fully describe it, that simple wave.
The down side, I WASN'T WEARING MY DAM SPECS. SO HELL I CAN'T SEE ANYTHING CLEARLY.
Haha, even so i could make out your silhouette babe. Anywhere, anytime. LOL. Okay joking, if you didn't walk past the library and had that surprised-shocked-longtimenosee expression and body language, I wouldn't have looked up. And I thank you for that.

PS. if anyone is actually reading this. hai, nice to meet you, please don't judge me. HAHA.

Then again, I have to push past all these. I've came to a conclusion a long time ago that he's just a "if-i don't see you, i'll forget about you soon enough".
That is why just the slight glimpse of you could bring back all those feelings I've took so long to put at the back of my head, locked in some treasure box with a key thrown into my deep sea of thoughts.

Don't be a fool they said. I won't be. But hey, can't a girl just be happy with her imagination?

Thank you to drey, who HAHA-ed me for a full minute; the 2 pervs for not bothering; and the long lost wei loong who gave constructive feedback and advise. HAHA.
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Putting emotions aside,
whatsup people! It's the Sept Holidays! And its ending real soon ),:
O's in about 6weeks plus?
WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE. These 4 weeks are gonna be real painful. I just know it, but what am i doing. Seriously?

SO ANYWAY,
yesterday was the most disturbing and frustrating journey to the club ever.
Firstly, the mrt ride- this guy with a group of girl friends sat beside me. I assume he just finished CCA or maybe he just sweat a lot and have really bad BO. AND IM LIKE DUDE? so here i am trying to lean as far away as i can from the dude, and drop hints that he stink, hoping that he would get off the next stop. Nope, had to suffer 90% of the journey.
then, after getting off the mrt, i exit the station on the wrong side, hence having to walk abit further crossing the road. So as i approach the traffic light, there is no button to press to cross the road?! so i'm like, what do i do. I ended up crossing to the other side, away, from the bus stop, and then crossing another 2 traffic lights to get to the bus stop. AS i was crossing, that no-button traffic light turned green man. LIKE WHAT EVEN?! Haiz, nevermind. exercise.

To all those feeling down, here's some inspiration.
Her positivity inspires me. AND IT SHALL INSPIRE YOU TOO.

 anyeong, 사랑해

Dignitas.

OKAY OKAY I AM LIKE A DAY LATE BUT AHH.
ITS A "HAVE TO" TO POST EVERY MONTH OKAY!?

 So anyway, whatsup. Prelims have just ended about a week ago, and it was a long tough struggle, like a long drought. Lo and behold. failed 3 subjects LOL. but, improved on the rest, SO i still did better than Mid Years, where i only failed 1 subject. HAHA. ironic no?

Sometimes, i question life. I'm the sort of person that don't follow theories or go by the books. If they say earth is round, earth is round. These basics i would have to agree without question. But it's those sweeping statements that make me think. Think hard. There are no other living matter other than earth they may say. That i beg to differ. We live on earth, found in one of a million galaxies called The Milky Way. Somehow i imagine ourselves to be caught in a snow globe, where there is something much greater out there, looking in on us. Just like how we look at ants, or how we look at micro organisms under a microscope. There are just infinite things in our universe that have yet to be discovered. In a far away planet many thousand miles away, there could be some organism whatever they may be, also thinking the same thing as me, about different existence of different species on other planets that are undiscovered. Yet in a single lifetime, it is impossible to find out about everything. Maybe that is why some people believe in reincarnation. Those people who cannot finish living in just one lifetime. A cat has nine lives. Maybe they are the ones who are able to know more than anyone else.

Why so emotional and deep you may ask?
I've just finished one of the most amazing books ever. Not one of those fan fiction werewolves vampires series.
Me Before You- Jojo Moyes
Please go check it out? I'm still so breathless after reading it. Like most stories we read now is all lovely flowers and dasies. But hey babe, sorry to burst your bubble, life aint no bed of roses.
Dignitas; A place where people assist those who choose to die.

There are rights. Human rights.
Live with dignity;
Die with dignity.

“I told him a story of two people. Two people who shouldn’t have met, and who didn’t like each other much when they did, but who found they were the only two people in the world who could possibly have understood each other.”

“I will never, ever regret the things I’ve done. Because most days, all you have are places in your memory that you can go to.”

-JoJo Moyes, Me Before You

Anyeong!

Right round.

TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF JULY AND I NEARLY FORGOT TO UPDATE THIS MONTH WHOOP. SAVED AT THE LAST MINUTE.

so, whatsup to the souls out there who still care to look at this. HAHA.
2 days to Eng prelims, and 12 to the rest of the papers. Screwed or screwed?
and NEVER GO ON THE COM. cos this happens. THIS RIGHT HERE. my time slips away like trying to hold water in your hands.

I feel like i can do this. i can. i have to. and i will. AAAH FIGHTING!

FOUNDERS DAY.
YAAAY CONVINCED MUMMY TO CURL MY HAIR. last minute checking of prices was hilarious tho. i did not have any shop in mind but..the internet is pretty useful.. first one i called $45 HAHA and guess how much i got mine for? $12.80 yo! so yup had fun camwhoring and stuff and our cup song item as a sec 4 cohord. oh right, "cohort". i just googled that to search for the correct spelling LOL. AND ENGLISH IS IN 2 DAYS TIME HAHA.
Oh, Marissa wore the same dress as me. well not exactly the same. like similar. I was perfectly find with it. BUT SHE GAVE ME THE WTH LOOK. but aiya whatever haha.

3 DAYS AGO, SUNDAY
impromptu road trip to JB LOL! went to watch Wolverine! tho i'm super confused about the show cos i don't exactly follow the series? But it was a great catch up with the cuzzies; Desiree, Tashia, Gavin. The movie tickets are so much cheaper there btw, 5.80 approx. HAHA. while just across the causeway its twice the price. But then again, they blanked out the intimate scenes. so.... LOL. stupid skip of scenes disrupted the flow...




Anyway, its 9.59 and i REALLY should get back to work. heh. okay tata (:

anyong!

Find someone who loves you more than you love him.

Half a year left.

Its June, coming to July. Half a year gone? Or half a year left?

3 DAYS AGO, ITS BEEN 4 YEARS SINCE I STARTED THIS BLOG WHOOP!
Blogspot, what an old "leychey" complicated blog forum some may say, but after 4 years i'm still here aren't i? Although i've got my tumblr, i won't leave blogspot.

1. my archives is looking sexier than ever at the side >>>
2. its where all of us in this '97 and earlier batches started off, where we use to stalk our senior's blog and just go to random blogs ("bloghopping")

And this post shall be dedicated to nik (HI NIK IF YOU ARE READING THIS, HOW DO YOU DO?) since she reminded me that blogging still exists. and that there's such thing if you blog well or not. obviously i don't cos mine is not sentimental enough LOL. mine is just..summarized. too summarized. Only when i'm feeling emotionally detached or when it's time to make new year resolutions, that is when i can really type a whole bunch of rubbish haha.

So its been a long while since i've hit the pool. Sometimes i'm too lazy, sometimes i just don't feel like it?
i should start one day. Gym is neither here nor there. i hit the gym only on Sundays, so it aint that spectacular.

TODAY
i did the wrong piece of homework. i am so annoyed with myself i cannot even.
ah so anyway i decided to screw it. and right now its 1040, so i've allocated the next 3h to finishing my geog paper 2 which i REALLY do not wanna do.
This holiday felt neither here nor there. Like i feel like i did a hell of crap but when i look back, its as if i did nothing. Ever get that feeling?
If you were to ask me if i had any lessons or takeaways, i really don't really know how to answer you.
I'll think about it, and post it some other day...

MY DREAM
did i say i have a dream journal? oh well i shall repeat it again. i do. HAHAHA. and i'm having problem recording all the dreams down. Cos' i would scribble them on a rough piece of paper and add to the already-existent pile, and i never seem to finish copying over. well, one day.

In the meantime, lets hope that water running in mummy and daddy's room can be stopped soon, or else ALOT of water will be wasted and the house may be flooded by morning. haha.

anyeong!
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Silver lining;

"I'm not a person who cannot hear, but a person who sees well;"




Can You Hear My Heart is such a complicated drama i tell you..

ANYWAY GUESS, WHAT..
SCHOOL IS CANCELLED NEXT WEEK DUE TO THE HAZE!!?!?!?!
the haze went up all the way to PSI:401
that is one crazy digit.
buildings all covered, masks all sold out...

everyone take care!

so in the meantime, i guess we have to make good use of this time =/ who knows if SPA and Olevels Chi oral will be postponed?

AND AND GUESS WHAT. MY KITTY KAT IS ATTACHEDD!!!hahhaa ok i dunno whats the difference between "seeing someone/dating" VS "official" so...

Don't always see the negative side to things. Sometimes it'll only bring you down further.
Search for the silver lining around your black cloud. Its there, you've just gotta look harder.

anyeong~ !

Together;

ITS JUNE.

how time has passed. it seems like not even a month have gone by since 2013 started. or another way is that it felt like a gazillion years has passed cos everything has been so hectic, but in fact, only 6 months have passed.

June camp just passed, and i still cant accept the fact that im sec 4. like we're the seniors of the board. we are the oldest of the school. we are who everyone looks up to. Made lots of junior friends hahaha and some really impressed me greatly.

oh and we met Aishah, who was a shooter for Singapore, and lost her limbs just last year due to a disease. she inspired me greatly.

I want;

I can;

I will- succeed.

AND NOW THERE ARE TWINS IN THE PB!! JESSICA AND JACKLYN HAHAHAHA SO COOL. AND AMANDA THE SEC ONE SOUNDS LIKE STELLA. its amazing. im not even kidding you.

4 Ɛver 2gether, 1MGPB family. <3>

this holiday is no break though,

booklets of past year papers, mock tests after, camps, and a week of extra lessons...

UGH. need a good break. theres a time to rest too yknow ):

and this song, IS SO SAD. 

have you ever heard those songs where you can just feel the emotions fill through you?

like Bieber's That Should Be Me

this is another one where you can just break down and cry. and it makes you think. a lot. 

with that in mind, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM HYUN JOONG OPPA! (gosh i sound so gay saying oppa HAHA)

❥ ❥ ❥  LOVE YOU LOTS LOTS LOTS. only korean guy i will ever fangirl for.

#HAPPYHYUNJOONGDAY!

i can't forget. i just can't. i've tried.

then again. i must be strong. for myself. 

during june camp, we wrote a note to our future selves. 

I hope my future self will be a stronger person...

ANYEONG!

lets rewind.

alright alright. i cheated. i just CANNOT miss the month of may in my archive): or it wont be nice anymore): hahaha

 SO MYE IS OVER!?!??!?!? and belive it or not, i did better than EOY even though i had like half the time i had to study.

idk how, but i need to improve each subject by 2 grades if i actually wanna get a 15 for prelims.
worried for the future. it has been so exhausting for the past months since school started..

BUT
right after MYE, drey crashed my house to watch Flower Boy Ramyun Shop HAHAHAHA. yeah, the main character is like. 3 years younger than the female lead. ew. and they end up together. aah love has no limit anyway...

Chi Os HAHAHAHA. ive never NEVER studied so much chinese in my life. It is as if these past few weeks of studying is even more than the past 10 years of studying for a chinese exam. LOL. im terrible.
CANT WAIT FOR THIS TO BE OVER.

anyo! oh wait, i found out there's no such thing as anyo, and its anyong HAHAHA.
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