On my way;

Might not be on top of the world, but i'm on my way.

AH FINALLY AT THE END OF THE MONTH TO BLOG.
I've always been pushing back to update this blog, ugh how lazy i am..

So this month has gone by quite quickly..some friendships mended, some friendships "broken". It was quite a emotional turmoil for some, but hey, if it doesn't involve you, get your nose out of it and you'll be safe <: p="">
Yes, June holidays has started for some people but i'm just like meh...i dont even have holidays until like.. next month and that's only for a week!
I am like super worried for Econs LOL. Cos seriously, who am i kidding, econs sucks. I'm getting pretty good at accounting though hehe

So to this new month,
1. i hope to conquer Econs
2. Frienships made, bonds maintained
3. STOP EATING SO MUCH CARBO OMGAH I WEIGHED MYSELF TODAY AND LIKE OMGAH.
4. Find time to appreciate things around me and stop rushing off to here and there..
5. to smile more
6. SLEEP EARLIER OMGAH, LATEST 1 CAN!?!?!
7. learn more korean so i can converse with Mel in a secret language HAHA
8. learn malay from mel and audrey (:

Happy June everyone (:

 

 anyeong

Riding Solo.

LAST DAY OF APRIL IS FINALLY HERE.
which means:
1. i have been procrastinating on this blogpost forever

2. i've been down under for about a month now...

I'm missing SG like mad i'm telling you. Char Kway Teow, Hokkien Mee, Chai Tao Kueh..

and my friends.. and most of all seeing singaporeans around me..

Here is literally stepping onto the homeland of china LOL. NO KIDDING.

My class is like 98% Chinese national while cal and I are the only non china persons there.

Yeah, some are nice. Some are just pure unfriendly or maybe their EQ naturally sucks.

There's not one genuine friend here. Like aside from my roommate Caroline and some lecture mates like andy(TH), angelia(ID), jack audrey melanie(MY), elise(HK). All great fun, but you see, they all have their own cliques..yes we may be close friends but not those close close kind of friends you'll go shopping with etc yknow? Don't even get me started with the Singaporeans...

I feel like i'm drowning each day. And i'm just afraid this optimism and enthusiasm will die out soon enough. I may laugh in class, but its just those short laughter at a joke ish..

I miss laughing so freely, so lively, falling of my chair in the midst...

So thank gawd i'm somewhat of an introvert where i like my room, my tv, and my desk.

Leave me alone in a library i can survive. Leave me alone during lunch break, i'll survive. Leave me alone at the easter fair, i'll survive. What i realised is i've been spending so much solo time on my own venturing whatever i'm kinda comfortable with it. But sometimes, it gets lonely. Just sometimes.

My phone is my next best friend too; music and apps really can keep you going. 

Kat says that most of her close friends and even best friends are from church. Now if you know me, i'm not all that of a religious person that i thought i was, and neither am i all christian-y with the whole jesus thing. Hence, no matter how badly i want to make friends, using church as a social platform is just way wrong..

I'm just seriously at loss now.

Sometimes, i feel like i could just break down and cry.

STUDIES...
Ain't going that great either..sure our english may be good..but hell am i struggling with economics and accounting..

Finding time to study is another thing as well. Oh lord please save me..

One month down, 7 to go.

Also, I'm actually considering picking up swimming again...
Nationals just passed, and seeing all the pictures and victories..THE FEELS MAN.


anyeong~

Never imagined;

HEYO FROM DOWN UNDER.
DAY ONE.
So we checked into unilodge..and like..LOL. FREAKING PIG STY CAN DIE.
like pls la at least wash the dishes can ):
but i shall talk in my ultimate innocent cute voice tmr HAHAHA. AND WE SHALL SEE WHAT HAPPENS.
Im super duper greatful for the wifi..like YAY.
and currently idk why i've been pretty hungry these few hours i've been here.
oh and btw, i forgot to bring my retainers..LOL. so hopefully Callista gets them on time to bring over before she flies!!

it was so sweet of everyone to have came down to send me off <3 like="" naaawwww="" nbsp="" p="">and like many many pics to remember everyone by <3 back="" believe="" can="" dec="" im="" in="" man="" only="" p="" still="" t="" though..like..dec="">
ANYEONG~
SARANGHAEYO!
what does it mean? was it deliberate? But you know, i wouldn't, couldn't, shouldn't care less.




you say goodmorning when it's midnight~
THE TIME DIFFERENCE BETWEEN VANS AND I IS CRAY CRAY. SO THE 3FRUITYPERVS WILL FIND IT SIMILAR TO CLIMBING MT EVEREST TO OVVO =/

already broken, already gone.

just 5 more days, and i'm off to the land down under...
feeling rather sad but happy at the same time because this last week it has been awesome catching up with my closest friends.

MG FUNFAIR
i had like 300 bucks to spend and the food ran out by like 1pm..so..UGH?! BUT ANYWAY
I managed to qing some people at haunted house and food and got something for mummy and auntie steph too..
met lots of new people too haha it was great basically.

THE PAST WEEK
Has been really cray cray. on mon went back to school to crash march camp, then tue went cycling at ecp and chilled at james house then off for dinner with nik, then today went to meet up with ms tay!! then dinner with jamesy and drey and dharani who we met at the mrt?! then with nishan for a short dessert. tomorrow..is a blank day but i have to pack..and fri im off to acsi..and sat is FAREWELL PARTAY!!
AH IT WAS/going to be JUST AWESOME AND I WILL MISS ALL THESE PEOPLE.

wait can i just share this awesome fact that I HAVE WON A BID OF 5 CLUBS 2 DAYS IN A ROW WITH THE SAME PARTNER AS WELL. (ratio 11:3) so nothing is impossible guys (:

ON THE SIDE LINES...
So dharani asked me like 1000 times if i was ready. I really don't know. Am I? Am I really ready to let go of all these and step out of my comfort zone?

anyeong!
you were a douche. why did i take so long to realise it.

another star?

Do you believe in the existence of aliens?
Heh, i don't exactly support the term fully, but recently it has come across my mind that in fact i do believe in the existence of other life on another planet. It may not be in this Milky Way galaxy we live in..but hey in this universe there are like a gazillion more galaxies. Who knows. Have i talked about this before? I think i have. HAHA ONE OF MY DEEP MOMENTS AGAIN.

LOL ALRIGHT I SOUND LIKE A PYSCHO NOW, but HEY HEY BORED PERSON HERE...

So now i'm watching this drama called "My love from another star". It basically talks about this guy from another star who has landed on earth, or rather crashed into earth, where its comet only comes by every 400 years. It kinda got me thinking that perhaps the theory behind his non-ageing appearance is simply because since he is from another planet, would the size, atmosphere and orbit around its own sun be all different from Earth's data?
Hence since it has already been proven that when you are in space, if it takes about 3 space months to travel to Planet A, in Earth time, it could just be 3 weeks? (Ah, basically in space, time goes faster)
And with all the different orbiting patterns in this universe, it could be smaller than the orbit Earth is travelling, hence making people age faster? (same vice versa)

Whenever i look up in the sky, you see all these lights. Depending on your location and city, (if i'm not wrong the busier and brighter your country/city is, it is harder to see the stars shining) you just wonder who else is out there. I've always wondered if there is exactly some other person or whatever their existence they call themselves on their planet, sitting at their window, looking into the sky and wondering about other planets like how i am doing about them. If we exist, why can't other beings or forms exist too?

But then i come to realise that in this busy crazy hectic society, it is rare anyone pause to stop and think about this possibility because since those "out-there-things" are not bothering them, they worry about things going on in their lives like taxes to pay, children to feed, meetings to attend...
Now that i have the time, i guess i'm having this freedom to explore my imagination further..

Then there is this thing called parallel universe as well.
James explained to me sometime ago..
Something about if currently i choose to go left, in another universe my other self chooses to go right. Basically these universe exist to support both possibilities of happening.
Even though I don't exactly believe in this for now, i guess i can continue brewing some theory in my head..

But life is not that simple. We don't get the luxury to discover things like that. The fight to continue to survive is what people worry. Is it like that as well on other planets?
This may also be what The Chrysalids and The Giver basically talk about. People call them "deviations" or "aliens"...I haven't thought of a word to name them, but in their own home, they could just be normal like any other of their own kind.
Why do people shun them? Cos they're different, they stand out. In this society, once you are not "normal", prejudice and discrimination occur...
Mental or physical abuse may occur, and they attack back.
HENCE, calling them aliens and monster and dangerous?
Its protective instinct bitches. Get over it.

Haiz, the possibilities of this world, this galaxy, this universe.
I know i won't discover it all in this one lifetime, but whatever my next life time would be, man would i want the luxury to discover all these.



ANYWAY GETTING BACK TO MY LIFE,
MY BIRTHDAY
was awesome. At first i thought it was going to be a simple lunch with mummy and stuff. Wasn't even expecting a cake! But hey, guess my bestie and my mummy are very efficient people who got the surprise together in two days! HAHA THANKS MUMMY AND DREY <3 muacks="" p="" xoxo="">Last bdae celebrating in SG till 6 years later when i graduate ):
BUT YAY THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH <3 p="">LOVE THE PRESENTS TOO HEHE
BESTIE RING!!
AND BANDUNG ICECREAM?! HOW COOL AND THOUGHTFUL OF CELENE AND DREY
LOTS OF COLOURFUL NOTEPAD PAPER FROM ANNABELLE AND LAURA
AND KITTYKAT'S SURPRISE PRESENT THAT WAS HIDDEN IN HER CUPBOARD FOR 4DAYS HAHAHA XOXO

anyeong!
blessed.

Building Bridges;

The month is nearing the end! And so have my journey at Ichiban Centrepoint. HAHA.
So as i've wished, i've really made unbreakable friendships there, and learned many new things, and had an experience that enabled me to open my eyes to the real corporate world.

I realised you really must know how to go with the flow and get your lingo right in order to fit into working environments respectively. For once i thank gawd for Chinese. 99.99% of the staff there were either Chinese-Malaysians or PRCs. Except for both my managers who are Fillipino haha.

WAITRESSING
Chris,
Lalika (which i sadly didn't get her contact number),
Ben
 and of course my co-worker from the same agency- pinghong.

CHEFS
Wenhong- who is a lady in contrast to the wenhong i know from swimming haha),
anthony,
ming,
xiong,
xiang (sean)

MANAGERS
darren, erlyn, charlene

All these cool people has made my working days bearable. Some days piss me off maybe, but hey, we're humans and we ain't perfect!
Also, i realised i should really kick my stuttering problem. Its really gonna kill me when i go into the working world. Especially if i wanna try to be a lawyer right? haiz..

And recently, my sis has been telling me to get out of the house, and that friendship is very important.
Well, of course i know that, but yknow all my school people all with JC now and who knows going cray cray with boys..and im like bleh. And recently i realised the ones i hang out with are my Swimming people, my cousins..and even Rishi, who i've not seen since..what, NS? Which he still is in but i still talk to him man! and like all these people are the ones that don't hang out with me most of the time when i was in school. Like do you get it? Like..These are the relationships that are actually lasting, still strong..which makes me sad, cos..like..why aren't my school friendships going strong? I mean yeah Nik, Lynn, Jaja and Tham are these few people that still stick by..but ironically none of them has been in my class for the past 3 years. See again- the closest ones to me..are just so far away.
So this time, i hope to mend this. I hope to build bridges. Strong ones, made of bricks.

This one month left, i'd like to clear up all messes. Both literal and metaphorically. HAHA.

Take care, Anyeong! (:

Year of the Horse.

YAY TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF CNY! (Well technically the 2nd day cos now its already 1224).
So first off, wishing everyone a very happy chinese new year!
Red everywhere, angpaos floating in our vision...One thing that is a "tradition" on social media would be the #ootd for EACH AND EVERY FREAKING DAY OF CNY. Like seriously how do people have that many outfits.

I honestly like CNY. Its my third most favourite celebration. Christmas being the first and New year being the second>>fireworks baby.
Not only do you get money for being young (HAHA JKJK), you get to finally meet up with relatives and cousins you haven't seen in like forever. Over the past few years, i actually learn how to appreciate family more. Many may dread this occasion of visiting, but trust me, don't waste this precious moment, time and occasion. Anything can happen; anything just touch and go. So to these 15 days ahead, i hope everyone will pause a moment and not idle their time away posting OOTDs and who knows what else on FB and Instagram. Talk to your grandmas and -pas, your aunties and uncles, share stories you've never heard or known ever. It'll be a different experience. Make it a different year.

Enough of my deep moment, so today was "new everything you wear" day. Legit. Being the first day of CNY, we all have new clothes, new shoes etc. And this new dress i had was pretty tight. like HELLO I'M FAT I GET IT. And relatives..or specifically my dad just had to emphasize it to my relatives. How less embarrassing can life get?
Meeting up with the cousins today was the best thing ever. Love them to the end of earth.



And recently we also came back from..
BANKOK.
Shut down bankok, Restart Thailand.
So currently there's all these riots or rather a calmer term known as "demonstrations" going on.
As scary as the news portrayed it to be, it was actually quite safe. Just VERY loud with the whistles and loud speakers. It was an experience i must say. Didn't regret anything. Attending my first overseas wedding was quite..cool. Its like watching a Japanese movie with no subtitles. We just clapped when everyone clapped, laughed when everyone did. HAHA. Did we have much of a choice?

And did i mention that Thai food is AWESOME. Mango sticky rice. Best thing ever. And their complexion. like OMGAH SO NICE?! and the trannys there are sexier than some actual women. Ironic.

ENDING OFF..
This month has been rather hectic.
1. Got a job, still lovin' it. (love my manager)
2. Got asked out. ALSO from one of my colleagues at my job (creepy).

okok lets pause to talk about my job for awhile.
Its really an experience as well. I learn things from the working world POV.
People treat you differently, you see how the world act, you see so many things, people from all walks of life...
You learn to appreciate the small things from your parents harsh scoldings about mannerisms when you were young, the education we were given, the EQ that some of us may lack.

ANYWAY,
I shall be deep again when i finish my contract at the start of March HAHA. So as i was saying...

3. Got back O's results
4. Was in the middle of a protest/demonstration in a foreign country. (even though i've seen a srilanka protest in UK)
5. Had all these CNY mumbo jumbo.
6. Everyone going their different paths in their JC/Poly/Overseas schools..

and blah blah blah..
but most importantly i hope everyone is well and healthy!
stay happy!

"Holding a grudge against someone is useless. Its like letting someone live in your head rent-free"

anyeong!