reflection in the mirror

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Another alternative is to go to the post below where it is my daly post (:
thank you.
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not the best day. could be worst?

ANWYAYS
new year. new changes. >>
new life. new character. new specs = new vision. new attitude. new spirit.
new everything.

I've realised that i have been more vulgar towards the end. maybe jus cos i get pissed more often now cos of my parents being so petty and ridiculous about some things.

I feel that i've changed. Not much better..but maybe worse.
-I over-react, causing others to be hurt sometimes.
-I get pissed off suddenly, and people thinks i have mood swings.
-I get up early from training for a medical reason, and people think im a slacker.
-I try to cheer people up, they normally say 'Its okay im fine (: ' and thats a total fake smile.
-I try to please my parents, they choose my sister over me. bias freaks, AND I'm the one always getting scolded cos of her mistakes. And once, we both got scolded. She cried cos she dropped her freakin useless pen on the floor. I cried cos i got slapped for the very first time from my dad.
For gawd sakes wad did i do to deserve this. seriously.

OH
and i learnt that the word ' ASSUME' will only get you no where..or get you to dig your own grave.
i have done many mistakes that i have regretted, so im very sorry to those to you out there. Some may see it, some may not. But at least i said it.

~Assuming in Math may deduct u some marks.
~Assuming in relationships may make it even worse.
~Assuming that someone status is referring to you, aint no good either.
~Assuming that its gonna rain, may ruin ur perfect day u were expecting.
So you get the idea yea?

KTLs
this thing is really a total crap thing. It has gotten me nowhere either.
And this year i realised also, that its very tiring having people that has crushes on you. Cos everyday you have urself thinking- 'why am i doing this? wad will i gain?' more attention? please. People tease you, you gotta answer back and insist he'/she's wrong. And you have them thinking they still got a chance WHEN you alr told them.
For some, once they're done 'running round in circles' they dao you and avoid you.
For the rest, they still can be nice and be yor good friend.

ugh I've had enough. I dun wan 2010 to be as messed up as this year. why messed up? hmm..lets see..
there was this stupid friendship problem that all leads back to one person that caused it.
there was this headache and the news that i cant swim til March broke me down till i was so terrified i was shivering plus limbs were numb. Later on there were more shoutings.
Then there was this compicated bg relationship crap.
sighs..

so i am gonna try to change myself for the better this year.
As for school, i really hope i dun be in the same class as her.
Home, my sis to get a life of stop reminding me that i cant swim no longer than 1hr for the time being.
You, gimme a break.
anyways, my daily post is below...

just another normal day.

MORNING
man i was so dang tired..last nite couldn sleep.. again. till like past 12?! and i had to wake up for training.
TRAINING
the sprints were quite good (: i did a 33 push off. and hey! its quite good for a girl that hasn trained in a month k!
My sis was being an annoyance, kept reminding me i had to get up after an hour. wont she get a life and shut her hole. so noisy.
Just cos she's older she thinks she can boss me arnd. pls.

NOW
i have jus spent about 30min typing th post above ^^ and oso partly cos this stupid keypads are going haywire..some of the words i type wont even come out -.-
i haven even eaten lunch cos i dunno if there was even lunch!
and im hungry ):


Anyways haha wishing all you guys out there a very HAPPY NEW YEAR! ((:

loves and hugs (;
xoxo :D

Yet another day passes.

MORNING

i had to put an alarm to wake me up. man im good. BUT snoozed it 2times hehe :D

skipped breakfast agin for some reason..

AFTERNOON

it came and gone within no time. was spent all on the com..watched How I met your Mother and wowp..haha both were funny (:

EVENING

My workout so wasn a workout..haha only did like 2sets?!

Dinner was pathetic. okay fine i know i shouldn call food that..but anyways, i had nothing to eat. rice, soup. AND the meat in the sotong..cos i din like the little cabages nor did i like liver. oh wells

OTHERS
i realised this com is screwed.. esp the key pads..anw and the thorn in my hand is STILL there since sunday?!

And i realised tht i have changed alot. Maybe into for the better or for the worst..i may never know.

Anyways i shall list out the lists on new years (:

OH and GREAT news. my sis has higher authority of going training now =.='

yupyup

hugs, nites (:

late nights. late mornings.

so yep basically I have to post from here since my dad was killing us..

ANYWAYS
I was this afternoon, while I was packing..I found a really old ssc mag, year 2004. Man good times good times..
Guess who I found.. Hehe.. There was rishi, Edwin, Marcus, rina, and me of course (: >> and gawd I look retarded..
BUT dun worry, the rest u all look really cute hahA! There were so many elder guys I din even recognise! man wad am I living under?!

OH YEA
did I mention I woke up at 1pm today.. Haha wads wrong wif me man ):
these past few days I have been only skipping beeakfast and having lunch instead ..

and brandy's album is A-W-E-S-O-M-E man!

Okay so that's it for tonight i guess..
Oh and I think there is a roach in the toilet. And I dun dare to go back in.. Dang how am I gonna shower or even brush my teeth ):

nites, hugs (:

love is in the air for some<3>
love is no where to be found for some
love is complicated for the last 60%

Boxing day o(0.0)o

SHOUT FOR JOY!
my dad say i can go training tmr (: YAY! its like OMG FINALLY!! hahahah after like 1month =.=

CHRISTMAS DAY
was spent sleeping till 12, went out to watch 'Alvin and the Chipmunks 2' with ben, sarah, annabelle, kat (:
It was GOOD hehehe really cute and the songs are nice too hehe (:
After went to have some ice-cream. OH and the best part is my sis and i both spent 8 bucks each on jus an ice cram for me and some youhgurt for her..man things are getting dam ex. OR they are alr ex originally without me noticing it..hahahaha
Then went to the club to eat dinner i think, since popcorn wasmy lunch..hehe
After dinner, went Kallang to watch Avatar! Only my sis and annabelle went to watch Princess and The Frog LOL! hhhaha and they found the show scary alr wth??!
Anyways, AVATAR WAS AWESOME! AHHAHAH as i said on fb, it can be a Legendary movie man!
One of the best I've watched..haha the effects were good too.

TODAY
slept at 1.30 last nite, woke up at 1230 hehe XD
my sis calls me a pig cos i keep sleeping till 12..but not that i could help it? hahahha

LATER
i have chi tuition. how great can that get.
haha i hope i will stay awake XD
and shit i forgot where i put all the chi books..ugh.

TOMORROW
its my granddads' death anniversary..
we always used to go in the mornings where we wont clash with our other relatives..haiz..
BUT my dad say going in the afternoon..so i have no idea wads gonna happen..

ANYWAYS
wish me luck for later :p

SO
wishing you guys a happy holidays!
spend ur last few days of hols wisely! Only 9 more days left ):
haiz...
hahhaha

hugs, good day(:

OH
and the weather is dam weird. rain for 1min then sunshine. Next minute it rains again =.='
AND the sky is reeaaally dark now. BUT aint raining..
I heard in US there is a snow storm or smth hahahaha..man i miss playing with snow ):

so yep byebye!
and i love my iTouch <3>

Christmas Eve (:

SO
as the title says, its CHRISTMAS EVE! ((:
hehe so wishing everyone out there a very MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE

MORNING
hehe woke up at 12. how great is that XD

oh and i got my iTouch yesterday :D
spent the WHOLE afternoon sorting it out. Stupid iTunes took dam long to download the latest version. At least 2hrs -.-
Then i figured out how to install applications. BUT got stucked in the end. so yep THANK YOU benho!

NOW
im dying..

LATER
going for 2 boring parties..haiz..

OTHERS
ever since my dad figured out the power of Youtube, he has been on it for the past week =.=

anyways
wish me luck for later ):
byeee :D
hugs

one day less. one less me ):

today i tried to ask my mum in the morning. obviously for training lar. she STILL wont leme..such a.....keep using the doctor for excuse..i mean..my headache gone alr..i wonder wad she go tell the doctor to make it sound as if i half dead till the doctor have to put such a long MC =.=

ANYWAYS enuf abt her -.-

THE GYM and THE WATER
well it was ok..the treadmill sucked again..
did weights and cycling was okay (:
i think i would try east coast park on sunday (:
Then went for a run just now around the neighbourhood. i realised there were actually alot of stray cats..and i came across a black cat>> bad luck? doubt. i ALREADY have bad luck -.-..even hamster says so..oh wells
OH and i went for a swim too (: hehe..the feel of the water felt really crappy ):

MORNING
so anyways wishing tino a HAPPY 13th BDAE>> abit of finally huh? haha jkjk..and he got dunked by hamster kk etc. then had a good laugh during breakfast..

TOMORROW
gotta go back to skool. waliao lar..have to remove my blue polish i painted 3days ago..oh wells..
then have some ENT doc -.- appointent at 3
and i HOPE i can get my Itouch tmr (:

so yep
nites hugs (: