Superheroes learn to fly.

GUESS WHO HAS A NEW ROOMMATE!!
AND SHE IS SINGAPOREAN!! YAAAAY!! (: YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY I AM. Like i was so worried she'll be one of those hk or cheenarians spoilt brats but OMGAH SHE IS AWESOME. She's indian and a vegetarian so it kinda exposes me to more curries and spices which is super interesting!
Super sweet but haha sometimes i may be a nuisance to her cos i talk too much..right? :p
AND AND NOW THAT PRIYA IS HERE (that's her name btw), AHEM AHEM HAS SHUDDUP LIKE FINALLY. well, at least quiet enough not to annoy me (: hehe okay okay i am mean and i should calm the freak down but yknow, i was just having one of those days.




There is a superhero in every one of us.
Superheroes learn to fly.
Every day every hour, turn the pain into power.

I was just thinking the other day, how it's so hard to let it go.
Now, the question is why?
It was never this hard, and it was really nothing, maybe even non-existent if you will call it.
But somehow, the small things that are around me can always trigger a reaction.
Be it words, quotes, food, habits..
But it was really nothing, just like air, you feel nothing, you see nothing, but you know it's just there to keep you alive.

Just like air.

When will it ever be easy. When will i be confident to surpress this, to look past all this. When will I not look back and think about this. When will i grow up.
Tell me why? Ain't nothing like a heartache, ain't nothing but a mistake.

anyeong~

Shake it off.

I'm at this point of the year where i don't know what to feel. Like seriously its neither happy nor sad and slightly bothering. And the late nights aren't helpful at all either.
I lay there unable to sleep, tired, but wide awake.



I pick out the small things, some of which brings joy, while other irritation.

The unexpected is just round the corner.
Sometimes you fear things, but taking a leap of faith, a step out of your comfort zone..

This coming month, i pray for patience, for understanding, for peace of mind.

anyeong!

Your Existence.

I literally spent the last 3 days walking around like dora the explorer. My legs, at this current moment, feel like they're gonna fall off.
But, i've never been so YOLO. So on Saturday we met up with Nat (super cool pilot, yes at age 20 and she's a pilot..and what have i achieved..more fats) and went round city with her friend.
We went to Eveleigh Market, WHERE I SAW KYLIE KWONG- MASTERCHEF. i swear i wanted to take a pic with her but A. she was busy and B. she did not look happy.
Nat headed off for Melbourne that night, leaving us with her MyMulti Bus3 ticket aka FREE RIDE TO NEARLY EVERYWHERE AND ANYWHERE IN SYDNEY.

HENCE, OUR ADVENTURE BEGINS.
we went on ferry after ferry, under the bridge, through the bridge, tram ride, bus ride, train ride..you name em', we got on them to fully maximize all in one week!
Although it has been about 9h since i got aboard the ferry, i still feel like i'm on it. Rocking forward, backward, forward, backward.
Next week, we're off again for some tour group adventure..EGGCITED..
yeah, i may not have gone back to SG, but hey i wouldn't have gone to these fun places.
Everything happen's for a reason...and there's always two sides to a coin.

MUMMY IS COMING YAAAAYYY..AND OUR FAMILY WILL BE REUNITED AGAIN (:
i really like it when the whole family is together.. yeah, shouting and nagging may start..but that's what happens in families; it is bound to happen. It is only when the noise stops, then you start to worry.

anyeong!

 

i forget you, then you just reappear, and my walls built all come crashing down; every single damn time. who are you, and what are you doing with my head.

Emotional Turmoil;

starting this post with a happy note,
EXAMS ARE OVER BABY!! okay lah, not that official, but yknow, who studies for English right? Somehow i think that despite how much i say this, i'm gonna regret it HAHAHA.
but really, i highly doubt i'm gonna study for it. like for the past week i have been staying up till 130 and waking up early to go to school at 9 just to study. it ain't a pretty cycle. it's a tiring one. do you know how exhausting it gets at time?

BUT YES, FINALLY,
all the major subjects are over!! i'm most happy with economics and legal paper really. Math was so-so. Like the questions i knew i didn't know how to do, i really didn't know how to do HAHA. so even when i had 15min extra time, all i could do is stare at those questions, but thankfully i spotted a question i absolutely left out lol!
accounting was the worst out of the lot. I'll be surprise if i get above a C. Hopefully i get at least a B!?!?!?! Ironically i was most confident in accounting but lol..guess we can conclude that we cannot count our eggs before the chickens are hatched..

Today i had a very long talk with mummy over the phone..1h 30min HAHA. Exceeded the usual 30min.
Basically, i just want all of you people out there to think about things that really matter, things that are physically there, things that you already have in your grasp, and don't ever take them for granted. Some days they may be there, and others they will not be. You just don't know when that day will come. Hence, i don't know, i just think a lot, and i hate it when people talk about death too early, when it is clearly not their time, when it makes me think that one day anything can go wrong and in a blink of an eye, they're not there anymore.
I try to get this message to my sis. I need to get this message to her, and the rest of you, the world.

Why do people care about the superficial, the non-existent popularity, the fake image they paint themselves when it is not truly what they care about and what they are all about.
Because society simply forces us to conform to what they demand for, not what we are comfortable with.
I believe there are always two sides to a story; as there are always two sides to a coin.

The world is spinning, time is passing. Stop for a moment to look at what you have, to look at how lucky you are, to see that life has given you the opportunity to do something. Treasure it.




ALSO,
HAHAHA I'M FINALLY NOT POSTING AT THE END OF THE MONTH. Cos well, i have time now.
I've got a new roommate! sort of -ish. She is only staying for about 10days because her homestay is not ready yet. But she's really nice! Once she leaves, hopefully there won't be anyone..Cos it's very hard to find someone as nice as her :/ She chose her English name CiCi (Sissy)..so i told her what it sounded like and what the locals here may misinterpret it as haha! Yes, the PRCs here literally choose their own name, and apparently they choose their birth date as well. Majority of their birthdays are not their real ones. Trust me. HAHA. More than you can imagine..weird huh..what parents would do to post their daughter a year early or later..

stay safe!
winter is freezing now..in the midst of it..
anyeong!

PS. now that exams are over, I AM GONNA FINALLY CONTINUE TO LEARN TO WRITE KOREAN YAAAY HAHAHA.

take a breath, and look in the mirror, do you like you?

Don't Rain on My Parade;

During the month, i actually have a billion and one music (lol jk, some months i can't find new music) to post, and it's just so hard to pick one. Yeah yeah sometimes i post 2..but ANYWAY, cos this song was stuck in my head for a few days past few weeks so YES IT MADE A BIGGER IMPACT THAN PARADE RAIN- HEDLEY > still a good song though *.*

anyway exams start in like..7 days, and gawd am i not ready. well i am sort of but yknow..UGH UGH UGH I KENNUT.
like econs, can go and die..accounting is logical but damn you definitions, and legal..LIKE YOU CAN GO AND ASDHGFJKKLAKJHKDHA
i hate exam period. but who does right?
The good thing is that half the school is empty cos they've all finished their exams, so law library is empty <: p="">
and did i mention i found 50 bucks? I think it was during this month? haha but somehow dollar coins can be found here and there too..
ALSO I GOT NEW BOOTS YAY. But they hurt like hell. yes they do. Beauty comes with a price people. Then again, Kat says the leather has to soften up, so have to bear with it for awhile..haiz...

One month has gone past yet again..how fast time is flying..3 months down, 5 to go~

AND AND I HAVE LEARNT HOW TO WRITE KOREAN LIKE YAY ME. ok not all, but roughly some. i'll get to it after exams..(1 week of torture.. I CAN DO THIS SHIT.)

anyeong!
there was nothing there to begin with.

On my way;

Might not be on top of the world, but i'm on my way.

AH FINALLY AT THE END OF THE MONTH TO BLOG.
I've always been pushing back to update this blog, ugh how lazy i am..

So this month has gone by quite quickly..some friendships mended, some friendships "broken". It was quite a emotional turmoil for some, but hey, if it doesn't involve you, get your nose out of it and you'll be safe <: p="">
Yes, June holidays has started for some people but i'm just like meh...i dont even have holidays until like.. next month and that's only for a week!
I am like super worried for Econs LOL. Cos seriously, who am i kidding, econs sucks. I'm getting pretty good at accounting though hehe

So to this new month,
1. i hope to conquer Econs
2. Frienships made, bonds maintained
3. STOP EATING SO MUCH CARBO OMGAH I WEIGHED MYSELF TODAY AND LIKE OMGAH.
4. Find time to appreciate things around me and stop rushing off to here and there..
5. to smile more
6. SLEEP EARLIER OMGAH, LATEST 1 CAN!?!?!
7. learn more korean so i can converse with Mel in a secret language HAHA
8. learn malay from mel and audrey (:

Happy June everyone (:

 

 anyeong

Riding Solo.

LAST DAY OF APRIL IS FINALLY HERE.
which means:
1. i have been procrastinating on this blogpost forever

2. i've been down under for about a month now...

I'm missing SG like mad i'm telling you. Char Kway Teow, Hokkien Mee, Chai Tao Kueh..

and my friends.. and most of all seeing singaporeans around me..

Here is literally stepping onto the homeland of china LOL. NO KIDDING.

My class is like 98% Chinese national while cal and I are the only non china persons there.

Yeah, some are nice. Some are just pure unfriendly or maybe their EQ naturally sucks.

There's not one genuine friend here. Like aside from my roommate Caroline and some lecture mates like andy(TH), angelia(ID), jack audrey melanie(MY), elise(HK). All great fun, but you see, they all have their own cliques..yes we may be close friends but not those close close kind of friends you'll go shopping with etc yknow? Don't even get me started with the Singaporeans...

I feel like i'm drowning each day. And i'm just afraid this optimism and enthusiasm will die out soon enough. I may laugh in class, but its just those short laughter at a joke ish..

I miss laughing so freely, so lively, falling of my chair in the midst...

So thank gawd i'm somewhat of an introvert where i like my room, my tv, and my desk.

Leave me alone in a library i can survive. Leave me alone during lunch break, i'll survive. Leave me alone at the easter fair, i'll survive. What i realised is i've been spending so much solo time on my own venturing whatever i'm kinda comfortable with it. But sometimes, it gets lonely. Just sometimes.

My phone is my next best friend too; music and apps really can keep you going. 

Kat says that most of her close friends and even best friends are from church. Now if you know me, i'm not all that of a religious person that i thought i was, and neither am i all christian-y with the whole jesus thing. Hence, no matter how badly i want to make friends, using church as a social platform is just way wrong..

I'm just seriously at loss now.

Sometimes, i feel like i could just break down and cry.

STUDIES...
Ain't going that great either..sure our english may be good..but hell am i struggling with economics and accounting..

Finding time to study is another thing as well. Oh lord please save me..

One month down, 7 to go.

Also, I'm actually considering picking up swimming again...
Nationals just passed, and seeing all the pictures and victories..THE FEELS MAN.


anyeong~