reflection in the mirror

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not the best day. could be worst?

ANWYAYS
new year. new changes. >>
new life. new character. new specs = new vision. new attitude. new spirit.
new everything.

I've realised that i have been more vulgar towards the end. maybe jus cos i get pissed more often now cos of my parents being so petty and ridiculous about some things.

I feel that i've changed. Not much better..but maybe worse.
-I over-react, causing others to be hurt sometimes.
-I get pissed off suddenly, and people thinks i have mood swings.
-I get up early from training for a medical reason, and people think im a slacker.
-I try to cheer people up, they normally say 'Its okay im fine (: ' and thats a total fake smile.
-I try to please my parents, they choose my sister over me. bias freaks, AND I'm the one always getting scolded cos of her mistakes. And once, we both got scolded. She cried cos she dropped her freakin useless pen on the floor. I cried cos i got slapped for the very first time from my dad.
For gawd sakes wad did i do to deserve this. seriously.

OH
and i learnt that the word ' ASSUME' will only get you no where..or get you to dig your own grave.
i have done many mistakes that i have regretted, so im very sorry to those to you out there. Some may see it, some may not. But at least i said it.

~Assuming in Math may deduct u some marks.
~Assuming in relationships may make it even worse.
~Assuming that someone status is referring to you, aint no good either.
~Assuming that its gonna rain, may ruin ur perfect day u were expecting.
So you get the idea yea?

KTLs
this thing is really a total crap thing. It has gotten me nowhere either.
And this year i realised also, that its very tiring having people that has crushes on you. Cos everyday you have urself thinking- 'why am i doing this? wad will i gain?' more attention? please. People tease you, you gotta answer back and insist he'/she's wrong. And you have them thinking they still got a chance WHEN you alr told them.
For some, once they're done 'running round in circles' they dao you and avoid you.
For the rest, they still can be nice and be yor good friend.

ugh I've had enough. I dun wan 2010 to be as messed up as this year. why messed up? hmm..lets see..
there was this stupid friendship problem that all leads back to one person that caused it.
there was this headache and the news that i cant swim til March broke me down till i was so terrified i was shivering plus limbs were numb. Later on there were more shoutings.
Then there was this compicated bg relationship crap.
sighs..

so i am gonna try to change myself for the better this year.
As for school, i really hope i dun be in the same class as her.
Home, my sis to get a life of stop reminding me that i cant swim no longer than 1hr for the time being.
You, gimme a break.
anyways, my daily post is below...

just another normal day.

MORNING
man i was so dang tired..last nite couldn sleep.. again. till like past 12?! and i had to wake up for training.
TRAINING
the sprints were quite good (: i did a 33 push off. and hey! its quite good for a girl that hasn trained in a month k!
My sis was being an annoyance, kept reminding me i had to get up after an hour. wont she get a life and shut her hole. so noisy.
Just cos she's older she thinks she can boss me arnd. pls.

NOW
i have jus spent about 30min typing th post above ^^ and oso partly cos this stupid keypads are going haywire..some of the words i type wont even come out -.-
i haven even eaten lunch cos i dunno if there was even lunch!
and im hungry ):


Anyways haha wishing all you guys out there a very HAPPY NEW YEAR! ((:

loves and hugs (;
xoxo :D

Yet another day passes.

MORNING

i had to put an alarm to wake me up. man im good. BUT snoozed it 2times hehe :D

skipped breakfast agin for some reason..

AFTERNOON

it came and gone within no time. was spent all on the com..watched How I met your Mother and wowp..haha both were funny (:

EVENING

My workout so wasn a workout..haha only did like 2sets?!

Dinner was pathetic. okay fine i know i shouldn call food that..but anyways, i had nothing to eat. rice, soup. AND the meat in the sotong..cos i din like the little cabages nor did i like liver. oh wells

OTHERS
i realised this com is screwed.. esp the key pads..anw and the thorn in my hand is STILL there since sunday?!

And i realised tht i have changed alot. Maybe into for the better or for the worst..i may never know.

Anyways i shall list out the lists on new years (:

OH and GREAT news. my sis has higher authority of going training now =.='

yupyup

hugs, nites (:

late nights. late mornings.

so yep basically I have to post from here since my dad was killing us..

ANYWAYS
I was this afternoon, while I was packing..I found a really old ssc mag, year 2004. Man good times good times..
Guess who I found.. Hehe.. There was rishi, Edwin, Marcus, rina, and me of course (: >> and gawd I look retarded..
BUT dun worry, the rest u all look really cute hahA! There were so many elder guys I din even recognise! man wad am I living under?!

OH YEA
did I mention I woke up at 1pm today.. Haha wads wrong wif me man ):
these past few days I have been only skipping beeakfast and having lunch instead ..

and brandy's album is A-W-E-S-O-M-E man!

Okay so that's it for tonight i guess..
Oh and I think there is a roach in the toilet. And I dun dare to go back in.. Dang how am I gonna shower or even brush my teeth ):

nites, hugs (:

love is in the air for some<3>
love is no where to be found for some
love is complicated for the last 60%

Boxing day o(0.0)o

SHOUT FOR JOY!
my dad say i can go training tmr (: YAY! its like OMG FINALLY!! hahahah after like 1month =.=

CHRISTMAS DAY
was spent sleeping till 12, went out to watch 'Alvin and the Chipmunks 2' with ben, sarah, annabelle, kat (:
It was GOOD hehehe really cute and the songs are nice too hehe (:
After went to have some ice-cream. OH and the best part is my sis and i both spent 8 bucks each on jus an ice cram for me and some youhgurt for her..man things are getting dam ex. OR they are alr ex originally without me noticing it..hahahaha
Then went to the club to eat dinner i think, since popcorn wasmy lunch..hehe
After dinner, went Kallang to watch Avatar! Only my sis and annabelle went to watch Princess and The Frog LOL! hhhaha and they found the show scary alr wth??!
Anyways, AVATAR WAS AWESOME! AHHAHAH as i said on fb, it can be a Legendary movie man!
One of the best I've watched..haha the effects were good too.

TODAY
slept at 1.30 last nite, woke up at 1230 hehe XD
my sis calls me a pig cos i keep sleeping till 12..but not that i could help it? hahahha

LATER
i have chi tuition. how great can that get.
haha i hope i will stay awake XD
and shit i forgot where i put all the chi books..ugh.

TOMORROW
its my granddads' death anniversary..
we always used to go in the mornings where we wont clash with our other relatives..haiz..
BUT my dad say going in the afternoon..so i have no idea wads gonna happen..

ANYWAYS
wish me luck for later :p

SO
wishing you guys a happy holidays!
spend ur last few days of hols wisely! Only 9 more days left ):
haiz...
hahhaha

hugs, good day(:

OH
and the weather is dam weird. rain for 1min then sunshine. Next minute it rains again =.='
AND the sky is reeaaally dark now. BUT aint raining..
I heard in US there is a snow storm or smth hahahaha..man i miss playing with snow ):

so yep byebye!
and i love my iTouch <3>

Christmas Eve (:

SO
as the title says, its CHRISTMAS EVE! ((:
hehe so wishing everyone out there a very MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE

MORNING
hehe woke up at 12. how great is that XD

oh and i got my iTouch yesterday :D
spent the WHOLE afternoon sorting it out. Stupid iTunes took dam long to download the latest version. At least 2hrs -.-
Then i figured out how to install applications. BUT got stucked in the end. so yep THANK YOU benho!

NOW
im dying..

LATER
going for 2 boring parties..haiz..

OTHERS
ever since my dad figured out the power of Youtube, he has been on it for the past week =.=

anyways
wish me luck for later ):
byeee :D
hugs

one day less. one less me ):

today i tried to ask my mum in the morning. obviously for training lar. she STILL wont leme..such a.....keep using the doctor for excuse..i mean..my headache gone alr..i wonder wad she go tell the doctor to make it sound as if i half dead till the doctor have to put such a long MC =.=

ANYWAYS enuf abt her -.-

THE GYM and THE WATER
well it was ok..the treadmill sucked again..
did weights and cycling was okay (:
i think i would try east coast park on sunday (:
Then went for a run just now around the neighbourhood. i realised there were actually alot of stray cats..and i came across a black cat>> bad luck? doubt. i ALREADY have bad luck -.-..even hamster says so..oh wells
OH and i went for a swim too (: hehe..the feel of the water felt really crappy ):

MORNING
so anyways wishing tino a HAPPY 13th BDAE>> abit of finally huh? haha jkjk..and he got dunked by hamster kk etc. then had a good laugh during breakfast..

TOMORROW
gotta go back to skool. waliao lar..have to remove my blue polish i painted 3days ago..oh wells..
then have some ENT doc -.- appointent at 3
and i HOPE i can get my Itouch tmr (:

so yep
nites hugs (:

crossing my fingers

MORNING
so basicallly went to gym for the 3rd time tis week. i think its the most number of times i have been to the gym in a week XD AND i lasted for an hour this time :D
only 10min on treadmill, cos i cant run for hellsake haha. 'Cycled' for 15min, the rest was on abs and weights..haiz i miss training ): though i heard its dam easy with yangbin haha..BUT still its better than nothing..
After gym was work..i finally touched chi for after abt 2monthS? man i forgot everything yeterday when i had chi tuition haha..everything give back to teacher liao :D

NOW
im dam hungry cos i din take bfast at the club and haven eaten lunch, though i dun intend to ):
and my head a tiny weenie bit pain still..haiz..oh god pls help ):

LATER
going to frans' house to celebrate Annebelles' dads bdae (: aka Uncle Dennis
well obviously im gonna bring some work..well at least a book (:

anyways yupyup
cya soon

TO
lynn- yup u btr not ditch ur dad! ahahha
nik- aiyoooo so u and ahem still bff? hahaha
kim- haha i still love ur cousins.. BUT ONLY cos they're really cute funny
jaja- missy i doubt u will see this but u wont come back till after christmas then ur ps how?

reyan- aiya jus upload leh..
rishi- hope ur havin fun in NZ
sarah- wads tht dudes' name?
bryan- i doubt ur going to update ur blog anytime eh?

others- talk to meee! ahahaa i very bored ): actually no la..im fine and still surviving anyways yupyup wishing yall a MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR (: i shall repeat this line on christmas eve or smth (:

hugs, good day(:

the clock is ticking.

I think the clock is ticking fast. Time has passed so fast, and now Christmas is just a week away.
Before we know it, the world MAY end in 2012 hahha. Touchwood! ok lar i lame chop.

ANYWAYS, YESTERDAY
went to gym, did abs, weights, cycling, and treadmill..haha i lasted longer than usual- 50min! haha wdvr lar i know very short.

AFTERNOON
I searched some piano covers. Learnt the intro of Mad by Ne-yo. haha not bad..but i cant continue!
Then i learnt the correct key of Long Juan feng- Jaychou
On and on, i think my neighbours sick of me playing the same old songs again and again..haha but i need practice to make it perfect wad..parent teach me one..must follow rite..haha

Then went for a run with nikki aka tonic aka my dog haha, around the neighbourhood..

OVERALL
it was a 'not bad ok day' But now..

TODAY
my legs are aching..i wonder if i should go gym tmr..

AFTERNOON
went shopping wif grandma and mum, but bringing me along was a last minute thing. In the end i bought the most stuff there hehe XD
And im changing specs! haha..my degree went up by 25 but only my right lar..i had to make a new one, or i would be blind for 3days plus man..haha
This year has been such a change man..haiz.

new begginings i guess..

NOW
the whole day my head felt like it was gonna explode. i dunno why lar..the previous days dun have..till today..man man pls god help me ):

so yea
nites and hugs! (:

still no training =(

YESTERDAY
me went to pierce ear! hehe (: they say still can swim, BUT my mum went on lecturing me abt Tigerwoods, Leeziyang dunno wad injury =.= > WHICH was so not related.
So now i jus gotta spend my days living in the gym, and the library =.='..only after a few days then im back to swimming..haiz..

BORDERS
so i went up and down 4aisles like 10x, searching for 3 freakin cds!
In the end i din even find it. haiyo..
So i decided to buy the 'Ultimate R&B- The Love Collection' cd lor..
At the counter, they said they werent doing any orders..
Sarah recommended that i went to 'That CD shop' so i did. they STILL din have. They dun have Kristinia Debarge and Shontelle's album, AND the ran out of brandy's album -.- haiyo oso..

SO
if anyone have seen:
Kristinia Debarge- Exposed
Shontelle- Shontelligence
Brandy- Human

albums, pls let me know thanks!

DINNER
i found a caterpillar in my rice, on my carrot. dang man. 2nd encounter of grubs/worms in my food. The first time i found some whitish worm in my longan. Ever since, i feared of eating Longan liao..
Then in p3, while in the basketball court, i found a greenish grub on my arm. ew man. I remember there were alot at the parents corner on the seats. sick man.

TODAY
I set my alarm at 7 to have a run around the neighbourhood to freshen up. But as most of you would think, yes i did not wake up hehe..switched off the alarm and went back to sleep till about 10
But im going for a run later so wdvr hhaha..
and my sis jus told me she's going training tmr. yes that is okay..BUT IN THE MORNING. omg i dun wanna wake up again jus to go gym..sighs..sholuld i go gym or dryland? =(

ALWAYS
i miss training. I miss training. I miss training. I miss training. I miss training. i Miss training. i miss training. SO BADLY! ):

bla bla bla
hugs, byee

'cause deep down I know I didn't wanna believe it
There it was, it was you and her,you left your sidekick on the night stand and I read

home sweet home (:

hehe so basically im back :D missed me? haha jk!
anyways

DAY1 - Universal Studios
man the rollercoaster was dam scary! stupid drop. haha i teared XD
we din really take much rides as we lost our parents after the Hollywood Dream. Wasted a few hours walking here and there, WITHOUT money or phone lar!
After, james intro us this crepe thing, was SUPER GOOD! the choco fudge with bananas in the thin layer of soft skin (:

DAY2-i dunno when> some village
haha basically this was alll sightseeing, had a snowball fight XD then fell into mud :p haiz..

DAY5- tokyo shopping!!
bought shoes and stationery hehe.. the stuff in japan dam ex lar!! waliao..esp the stuff in Universal Studios and Disneyland are FREAKIN ex..so those who will recieve those from there be grateful man! haha i had to 'convince' my mum :p

DAY6- Disneyland!
haha we took a pic with this guy from pirates of the Carribean haha he looks really real and drunk XD
the Castle was cool. However my sis not only thinks its cool, she thinks its the main thing there =.='
the rides werent as bad as Universal S. lol. That day actually sucked cos it rained like cats and dogs, AND we din have an umbrella =.='
The mini rollercoaster there was soo fun! haha. haunted house was NOT huanted at all BUT my sis still din go in. BUT she still cried when we found her =.='
haiz..

LAST DAY- Airport
basically we took the A380 back! But nothing special lar..though its the biggest craft in the world or smth like tht bla bla..but the staircase aka upperdeck was uber cool! hehe

ANYWAYS hope u guys overseas have/had fun

hugs bye! (:

byebye Singapore, hello Japan (:

okie so as the title says, away i go to japan! hehe, today. And guess what? Our light is at 1am =.='
anyways,
this would be my last post till i return ): unless i can post on my mums' phone, which is gonna be tough.

SHOPPING!
hehe im so gonna buy many many things. i think XD
I heard there are good goggles there..AND im gonna get costumes. hehe heck about the not swimming for long long part!

PARENTS ARE UGH!
okay so this section is to ppl whos' parents are really pissing them off.
Like mine. so wdvr! hehe. just rmb, one ear in, one ear out! they dun listen to us. So, dun bother trying to talk back. Maybe only sometimes if really necessary. And to look like you're actualy listening, jus go uh-huh and nod on n on..
haha i think you all know this lar..but just a reminder ;)

Ohoh. and i FINALLY got Fight for this Love hehe thanks sarah! and PLEASE tag on my bloggie (:

DEDICATIONs
rishi- hahaha cows and more cows. sheeps and more sheeps aint it ;) rmb get me smth arh! haha jk (:
reyan- haiyo long long time haven heard from you!
bryan- have fun in Korea (: and take care of ahem while im gone arh!
sarah- have fun training while i cant =( and happy thinking of ^^ (;
fran- long time din see yea since wed? yup byeeee!
ben- hahahahhahhahahahaha doggie will miss you!

jaja- hahahah rmb my crops!
lynn- yupyup hope u had fun in US! haha later u see jaja there oso XD
kim- yupyup haven heard from you since about a week?
jolene- eeehhhh who is BMW??!! tell meee! oh yea how many bears now arh?
nik- hahahahhahahaha tell me how ur ahem is coming along when i come back (:

ANYWAYS I WILL MISS YOU GUYS! haha guess who >> (;
yupyup byebye take care ily xoxo

hugs <3

dreams dashed.

My. life. is. messed.

[this, is obviously edited. need. to. calm. down.]

blablabla

so basically last nite i had to end the post abruptly. yesyes i know im not suppose to be up too late..sorry lar..but not as if im playing computer games rite =.='

THE EXCUSE
gawd i tell you. Out of all 'allybys' aka excuses, he told me go study =.=' wth?! when i study he so dun study dun push myself. If i dun, he tells me that. Lamo lar! Everytime contradicts himself. ass..
okkok sorry im ranting..BUT its better ranting at my blog rite??

LATER
i really hope they allow me go training..i can persuade them..hehe..
AND i hope they allow me go watch movie on fri ):
well..i jus gotta wait and see.. haiz

i may not blog lataer anw..byeee
good day (:

why ):

haiz no training. AGAIN. so pissing. I bet they just purposely dun wan me go trng. P-I-S-S-I-N-G!

So..
MORNING
woke up at 920. Amazingly before the alarm at 945 haah.

AFTERNOON
after i found out i not trng, i slacked off watching tv and stuff..at least i did abs (:

anw gtg dad is being an ass..

update

okie those who have alr seen last nite/yest post, I have updated/edited it alr this morning. Hehe last nite couldn post more. Dad was killing me liao.. so check it out >>>>>>>