reflection in the mirror

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Another alternative is to go to the post below where it is my daly post (:
thank you.
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not the best day. could be worst?

ANWYAYS
new year. new changes. >>
new life. new character. new specs = new vision. new attitude. new spirit.
new everything.

I've realised that i have been more vulgar towards the end. maybe jus cos i get pissed more often now cos of my parents being so petty and ridiculous about some things.

I feel that i've changed. Not much better..but maybe worse.
-I over-react, causing others to be hurt sometimes.
-I get pissed off suddenly, and people thinks i have mood swings.
-I get up early from training for a medical reason, and people think im a slacker.
-I try to cheer people up, they normally say 'Its okay im fine (: ' and thats a total fake smile.
-I try to please my parents, they choose my sister over me. bias freaks, AND I'm the one always getting scolded cos of her mistakes. And once, we both got scolded. She cried cos she dropped her freakin useless pen on the floor. I cried cos i got slapped for the very first time from my dad.
For gawd sakes wad did i do to deserve this. seriously.

OH
and i learnt that the word ' ASSUME' will only get you no where..or get you to dig your own grave.
i have done many mistakes that i have regretted, so im very sorry to those to you out there. Some may see it, some may not. But at least i said it.

~Assuming in Math may deduct u some marks.
~Assuming in relationships may make it even worse.
~Assuming that someone status is referring to you, aint no good either.
~Assuming that its gonna rain, may ruin ur perfect day u were expecting.
So you get the idea yea?

KTLs
this thing is really a total crap thing. It has gotten me nowhere either.
And this year i realised also, that its very tiring having people that has crushes on you. Cos everyday you have urself thinking- 'why am i doing this? wad will i gain?' more attention? please. People tease you, you gotta answer back and insist he'/she's wrong. And you have them thinking they still got a chance WHEN you alr told them.
For some, once they're done 'running round in circles' they dao you and avoid you.
For the rest, they still can be nice and be yor good friend.

ugh I've had enough. I dun wan 2010 to be as messed up as this year. why messed up? hmm..lets see..
there was this stupid friendship problem that all leads back to one person that caused it.
there was this headache and the news that i cant swim til March broke me down till i was so terrified i was shivering plus limbs were numb. Later on there were more shoutings.
Then there was this compicated bg relationship crap.
sighs..

so i am gonna try to change myself for the better this year.
As for school, i really hope i dun be in the same class as her.
Home, my sis to get a life of stop reminding me that i cant swim no longer than 1hr for the time being.
You, gimme a break.
anyways, my daily post is below...