For Giving;

the season of giving is here..
ITS HERE...MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!
MAY YOU BE HERE DOWN UNDER, IN THE LITTLE RED DOT, WISHING EVERYONE A WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS WITH LOTS OF PRESENTS AND KISSES UNDER THE MISTLETOE xx

i've been literally waiting and hyped up for this day ever since mid years..before prelims..somewhere earlier this year, AND ITS HERE. not exactly as exciting as i would have hoped..cos..hey me no presents ): but OH WELL. I'M ENJOYING THE WEATHER HEHE.




I realised that there will never be equality in this world. With equality, there would be no determination and strive to work hard for ones ownself. Also, there would be one person out of the trillions who would succumb to greed and evil. Jealousy, pride. What can we do?
Our morals, our foundation need to be strong. Do not waver.
Although the rich gets richer, and the poor gets poorer in certain areas, its the season to give, the season to be thankful for what we have.



Slashings reported this morning, smashing of bottles and what others..
Take care everyone, and keep safe, and off the booze! Don't drink and drive (;

Merry Christmas and a Happy new year everyone (:

anyeong!

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i really really wanted to post on 11.12.13 ): yknow, COS ITS SUCH A COOL AND AWESOME DATE. THAT DOESN'T COME BY OFTEN.
But anyway, hello from Aussie!
Not exactly having the greatest time here. A bit boring :/ See, this what happens when you don't book stuff early. Welcome to our family...

But anyhoo, the weather is cray cray. When you walk out of any room or shopping mall out into the open and you expect to have a nice cool breeze blown onto your face, BOOMZ, A HOT BLAST OF AIR JUST DECIDES TO GUSH ONTO EVERY SQUARE INCH OF YOUR BODY. okay LOL joking just over exaggerating. But hey its pretty hot.. just no humidity yay!

Hot guys here, very VERY courteous people... one of the things I'm looking forward to here! (: But everything here is so ex! With no sales, I can barely dare to open my wallet. As kat always says, "welcome to the Aussie life." I think it'll be awhile till i get used to it.

Another 20++ days till we're back to the little red dot? I wonder how that will go... Tasmania may be a bit far fetched for now :/ prices soaring!

Everyone take care this holiday! Don't get sick!
In the meantime, (if i don't get online anytime soon) Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Can't wait to get back home!

Just when I thought you were at the losing end,  you always ended up one step ahead.




anyeong!

Reply 1997.

To talk about a next time that may never come, when now is right in front of you. Life is too short for that.

Happy November everyone! can you believe it, 2013 is coming to an end..ah lets talk about Christmas first. CHRISTMAS IS ABOUT A MONTH AWAY YAAAAAYYYY. I have been waiting for Christmas Day even before Prelims started, even before mid-years. I don't even know where to start to describe my feelings of this wonderful holiday called CHRISTMAS. the christmas spirit bubbling in every city, with the colourful lights blinking away in trees...the most joyous occasion. Okay, maybe not for the Chinese. Most kids would think Chinese New Year would be the most joyous since they receive money hahaha.. but hey, no me still lub lub Christmas (: THE PRESENTS THE CHRISTMAS CAROLS THE EVERYTHING.

To be sincere, it comes from the heart. No doubts, no hesitation, no question. That would then be a genuine gesture.
When disasters strike, donations roll in. But through who to get to the victims? Through organisations like Red Cross etc. However many have heard of stories that corruption may result in the donations going astray, and the victims will never receive those donations. Hence we worry, and we don't donate for this fear. But, in the first place, do we have the heart to donate if we question and doubt these organisations? Yes we do have the heart. But we can't bear to see our donations go into the wrong hands. So are we considered sincere and genuine in the first place?




while all you people are overseas, take care!

anyeong!

The way it used to be?

a month ago, i was just talking how O's were in 11 days, and freedom was in about a months' plus. And look how time has passed, how a month has just flew by, and here i am talking to you that O's are ending in just 2days.
Of course it was not an easy month. Days of worrying and stress and frustration from those other students who show off getting full marks in this and that. But then again, who are we to compare ourselves to them when we ourselves do not help ourselves and have some confidence. Confidence. Something most of us think we have but most of the time end up wrong. We lack that. However, some may have too much of it. Hah, its funny how this world works really.

This society we live in, makes me question life. Sungkyunkwan Scandal was one drama i was watching through the mid-break of Os. (hehe, hey we need a break too...then again i watched Flower Boy next door too..HAHA. and currently in the midst of watching The Greatest Love). But from all these 3 dramas, we learn something. Let me tell you something about Korean Dramas. They have one main specific target audience known as the female population. As we watch these, all those lovey dovey scenes of the main guy hero risking everything at all costs just to sweep the heroine off her feet, make our hearts flutter, raising our expectations of our future partners 1000000000x more higher.

But why do we watch these? Simple. To satisfy our desperate unrealistic fantasies of having a Prince Charming like that. It is only by watching these things that we get to experience this dire need, this selfish expectations that we have given ourselves and also the male population of upholding this bar, has make this whole society constantly demanding things that will only have a one in a million chance of happening.

Courtship, dating, whatever you may want to call it,
 is one tricky stage in a relationship don't you think? It's like that "stage" where you have to pass and its all clear and smooth sailing from then on. Kind of. That is what people think. No, please get that out of your heads. It is not a game. Dating is where a whole new world starts, the beginning of either something much greater, or on the other hand, the beginning of war. A simple behaviour like laughing when you fell down, will grow into something like leaving you in the lurch when you're at your worst in the future. Habits die hard. But over the rainbow, you see those- he picks you up when you have fallen, and this habit will just grow to something like staying by your side and supporting you through your hardest times.

Marriage.
Don't take it lightly. As the words at the alter echo, "stand beside you through thick and thin, through good and bad, through joy and sorrow." Why do people say these if they don't keep to it?
Formality they may say. But why don't people take these seriously? I just don't understand. Greed. Hatred. Pride. I'm scared of this world. Scared that I won't be strong enough for whatever that may be thrown at me. Scared that i may fall into the same pit that she has fallen. Scared that i won't have the strength to get up on my own, out of that pit. Scared to fall again, to be hurt again. But what can we do? Carry on living that is.

The future holds a series of wonders, a series of darkeness. There won't be best of both worlds, you'd just better give and take, and make-do with what you have, and appreciate the little things. Taking things for granted aye? It won't last. When that thing is gone, you won't get it back, ever. So hold on tight my friend, hold on tight, or you may regret it and suffer the consequences later.

Poverty.
Why do people steal? Why do people cheat? Why do people lie? Desperation.
We may detests robbers, cheaters and liars. But then again what is their story? What if we were put into their shoes? I've come to realise that the third world countries are being forced into the corner, where they have no choice but to work in those poor conditions that they are given, paid peanuts, but yet expected to abide by the laws and rules? How are they going to feed their families? themselves? With those peanuts they are being paid, they are forced to steal, forced to cheat, forced to lie. Yes they can try breaking out of that poverty cycle and helping themselves by working hard, working hard to earn their own living.
But without the support of anyone, without the courage, and in that kind of environment and in this society, it is nearly impossible. Hence, those born with a silver spoon in your mouth, don't take everything for granted. Don't just spend wastefully, for you are given a chance to make a difference, a chance to do something to change this. The riches have become selfish, and the poor has become selfless. Shouldn't it be the reverse?
But what can we do. This cycle where we have to upkeep ourselves, our image, to have supporters and fans, to make ourselves feel better, to build our name to fame, we need money. All the values are all linked one way or another, with the dirtiest thing on this earth. Greed and money.
But i'm not saying all robbers cheaters and liars are good people. Some are just plain lazy and have a rubbish attitude on life. So they deserve it. I'm just saying, before judging, give people a chance. But others who are willing to work hard but are not given the opportunity.
Then again, the good and the bad are distinguish-ably hard to separate because of facades built up over time, to survive in this cruel world.

This world. This society. How?


I am lucky to be born into a family that is able to support me to live comfortably, with only the worries of scoring well in exams and competitions. What about others?
So live each day like it is your last. Don't look down on others, for that could be you too. We don't know what will happen after we die. What if you end up in a horrible place?

Be thankful. I am, but i hope for everyone to find that strength to help ourselves to stand up after we have fallen, find that courage to hold on to what we believe in, find that wisdom to choose the right from wrong, find that idea that will change this world to be a better one.

To the last 2 days of O's, i wish everyone the best. and to those who have finished today, well...haha well on you!

Anyeong!

The way it used to be, when life was simple, and the only apples we had to care were the ones growing on trees, and the only blackberries were the poisonous ones in the bushes found in the nearby forests and when the only form of communication was letters and telegrams and smoke calls. I can't say i hate the globalisation and industrialisation that has happened throughout the century. But what if we were living like the past? What if.

11 days.

It's currently 1222...

and my eyes can barely stay open.
So here i am just to say hello, and goodbye.

(That sounds like a legit poem.)

HAHA.
okay, so anyway good luck to all people who are suffering with us, we shall pull through this together.

and in the meantime, i needa sleep. thanks. HAHAHA. #brainnotfunctioning





goodnight, anyeong.
me eggcited to sleep teehee.

Everything happens for a reason. So don't be sad yeah? (: you're not alone.

11days to Os...1 month 5 days to freedom. 2 more days till graduation. Once an MGirl, always an MGirl.

All you need is love.

So, I saw him yesterday. And poof, it made my day.
People said I was lame; they said I was wasting my time; they said I was a fool.
A fool yet again, but I was happy, happy to have that feeling again. You have no idea.
I can't fully describe it, that simple wave.
The down side, I WASN'T WEARING MY DAM SPECS. SO HELL I CAN'T SEE ANYTHING CLEARLY.
Haha, even so i could make out your silhouette babe. Anywhere, anytime. LOL. Okay joking, if you didn't walk past the library and had that surprised-shocked-longtimenosee expression and body language, I wouldn't have looked up. And I thank you for that.

PS. if anyone is actually reading this. hai, nice to meet you, please don't judge me. HAHA.

Then again, I have to push past all these. I've came to a conclusion a long time ago that he's just a "if-i don't see you, i'll forget about you soon enough".
That is why just the slight glimpse of you could bring back all those feelings I've took so long to put at the back of my head, locked in some treasure box with a key thrown into my deep sea of thoughts.

Don't be a fool they said. I won't be. But hey, can't a girl just be happy with her imagination?

Thank you to drey, who HAHA-ed me for a full minute; the 2 pervs for not bothering; and the long lost wei loong who gave constructive feedback and advise. HAHA.
 ___________________________________

Putting emotions aside,
whatsup people! It's the Sept Holidays! And its ending real soon ),:
O's in about 6weeks plus?
WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE. These 4 weeks are gonna be real painful. I just know it, but what am i doing. Seriously?

SO ANYWAY,
yesterday was the most disturbing and frustrating journey to the club ever.
Firstly, the mrt ride- this guy with a group of girl friends sat beside me. I assume he just finished CCA or maybe he just sweat a lot and have really bad BO. AND IM LIKE DUDE? so here i am trying to lean as far away as i can from the dude, and drop hints that he stink, hoping that he would get off the next stop. Nope, had to suffer 90% of the journey.
then, after getting off the mrt, i exit the station on the wrong side, hence having to walk abit further crossing the road. So as i approach the traffic light, there is no button to press to cross the road?! so i'm like, what do i do. I ended up crossing to the other side, away, from the bus stop, and then crossing another 2 traffic lights to get to the bus stop. AS i was crossing, that no-button traffic light turned green man. LIKE WHAT EVEN?! Haiz, nevermind. exercise.

To all those feeling down, here's some inspiration.
Her positivity inspires me. AND IT SHALL INSPIRE YOU TOO.

 anyeong, 사랑해

Dignitas.

OKAY OKAY I AM LIKE A DAY LATE BUT AHH.
ITS A "HAVE TO" TO POST EVERY MONTH OKAY!?

 So anyway, whatsup. Prelims have just ended about a week ago, and it was a long tough struggle, like a long drought. Lo and behold. failed 3 subjects LOL. but, improved on the rest, SO i still did better than Mid Years, where i only failed 1 subject. HAHA. ironic no?

Sometimes, i question life. I'm the sort of person that don't follow theories or go by the books. If they say earth is round, earth is round. These basics i would have to agree without question. But it's those sweeping statements that make me think. Think hard. There are no other living matter other than earth they may say. That i beg to differ. We live on earth, found in one of a million galaxies called The Milky Way. Somehow i imagine ourselves to be caught in a snow globe, where there is something much greater out there, looking in on us. Just like how we look at ants, or how we look at micro organisms under a microscope. There are just infinite things in our universe that have yet to be discovered. In a far away planet many thousand miles away, there could be some organism whatever they may be, also thinking the same thing as me, about different existence of different species on other planets that are undiscovered. Yet in a single lifetime, it is impossible to find out about everything. Maybe that is why some people believe in reincarnation. Those people who cannot finish living in just one lifetime. A cat has nine lives. Maybe they are the ones who are able to know more than anyone else.

Why so emotional and deep you may ask?
I've just finished one of the most amazing books ever. Not one of those fan fiction werewolves vampires series.
Me Before You- Jojo Moyes
Please go check it out? I'm still so breathless after reading it. Like most stories we read now is all lovely flowers and dasies. But hey babe, sorry to burst your bubble, life aint no bed of roses.
Dignitas; A place where people assist those who choose to die.

There are rights. Human rights.
Live with dignity;
Die with dignity.

“I told him a story of two people. Two people who shouldn’t have met, and who didn’t like each other much when they did, but who found they were the only two people in the world who could possibly have understood each other.”

“I will never, ever regret the things I’ve done. Because most days, all you have are places in your memory that you can go to.”

-JoJo Moyes, Me Before You

Anyeong!

Right round.

TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF JULY AND I NEARLY FORGOT TO UPDATE THIS MONTH WHOOP. SAVED AT THE LAST MINUTE.

so, whatsup to the souls out there who still care to look at this. HAHA.
2 days to Eng prelims, and 12 to the rest of the papers. Screwed or screwed?
and NEVER GO ON THE COM. cos this happens. THIS RIGHT HERE. my time slips away like trying to hold water in your hands.

I feel like i can do this. i can. i have to. and i will. AAAH FIGHTING!

FOUNDERS DAY.
YAAAY CONVINCED MUMMY TO CURL MY HAIR. last minute checking of prices was hilarious tho. i did not have any shop in mind but..the internet is pretty useful.. first one i called $45 HAHA and guess how much i got mine for? $12.80 yo! so yup had fun camwhoring and stuff and our cup song item as a sec 4 cohord. oh right, "cohort". i just googled that to search for the correct spelling LOL. AND ENGLISH IS IN 2 DAYS TIME HAHA.
Oh, Marissa wore the same dress as me. well not exactly the same. like similar. I was perfectly find with it. BUT SHE GAVE ME THE WTH LOOK. but aiya whatever haha.

3 DAYS AGO, SUNDAY
impromptu road trip to JB LOL! went to watch Wolverine! tho i'm super confused about the show cos i don't exactly follow the series? But it was a great catch up with the cuzzies; Desiree, Tashia, Gavin. The movie tickets are so much cheaper there btw, 5.80 approx. HAHA. while just across the causeway its twice the price. But then again, they blanked out the intimate scenes. so.... LOL. stupid skip of scenes disrupted the flow...




Anyway, its 9.59 and i REALLY should get back to work. heh. okay tata (:

anyong!

Find someone who loves you more than you love him.

Half a year left.

Its June, coming to July. Half a year gone? Or half a year left?

3 DAYS AGO, ITS BEEN 4 YEARS SINCE I STARTED THIS BLOG WHOOP!
Blogspot, what an old "leychey" complicated blog forum some may say, but after 4 years i'm still here aren't i? Although i've got my tumblr, i won't leave blogspot.

1. my archives is looking sexier than ever at the side >>>
2. its where all of us in this '97 and earlier batches started off, where we use to stalk our senior's blog and just go to random blogs ("bloghopping")

And this post shall be dedicated to nik (HI NIK IF YOU ARE READING THIS, HOW DO YOU DO?) since she reminded me that blogging still exists. and that there's such thing if you blog well or not. obviously i don't cos mine is not sentimental enough LOL. mine is just..summarized. too summarized. Only when i'm feeling emotionally detached or when it's time to make new year resolutions, that is when i can really type a whole bunch of rubbish haha.

So its been a long while since i've hit the pool. Sometimes i'm too lazy, sometimes i just don't feel like it?
i should start one day. Gym is neither here nor there. i hit the gym only on Sundays, so it aint that spectacular.

TODAY
i did the wrong piece of homework. i am so annoyed with myself i cannot even.
ah so anyway i decided to screw it. and right now its 1040, so i've allocated the next 3h to finishing my geog paper 2 which i REALLY do not wanna do.
This holiday felt neither here nor there. Like i feel like i did a hell of crap but when i look back, its as if i did nothing. Ever get that feeling?
If you were to ask me if i had any lessons or takeaways, i really don't really know how to answer you.
I'll think about it, and post it some other day...

MY DREAM
did i say i have a dream journal? oh well i shall repeat it again. i do. HAHAHA. and i'm having problem recording all the dreams down. Cos' i would scribble them on a rough piece of paper and add to the already-existent pile, and i never seem to finish copying over. well, one day.

In the meantime, lets hope that water running in mummy and daddy's room can be stopped soon, or else ALOT of water will be wasted and the house may be flooded by morning. haha.

anyeong!
<3 p="">Am i still uncertain about this?

Silver lining;

"I'm not a person who cannot hear, but a person who sees well;"




Can You Hear My Heart is such a complicated drama i tell you..

ANYWAY GUESS, WHAT..
SCHOOL IS CANCELLED NEXT WEEK DUE TO THE HAZE!!?!?!?!
the haze went up all the way to PSI:401
that is one crazy digit.
buildings all covered, masks all sold out...

everyone take care!

so in the meantime, i guess we have to make good use of this time =/ who knows if SPA and Olevels Chi oral will be postponed?

AND AND GUESS WHAT. MY KITTY KAT IS ATTACHEDD!!!hahhaa ok i dunno whats the difference between "seeing someone/dating" VS "official" so...

Don't always see the negative side to things. Sometimes it'll only bring you down further.
Search for the silver lining around your black cloud. Its there, you've just gotta look harder.

anyeong~ !

Together;

ITS JUNE.

how time has passed. it seems like not even a month have gone by since 2013 started. or another way is that it felt like a gazillion years has passed cos everything has been so hectic, but in fact, only 6 months have passed.

June camp just passed, and i still cant accept the fact that im sec 4. like we're the seniors of the board. we are the oldest of the school. we are who everyone looks up to. Made lots of junior friends hahaha and some really impressed me greatly.

oh and we met Aishah, who was a shooter for Singapore, and lost her limbs just last year due to a disease. she inspired me greatly.

I want;

I can;

I will- succeed.

AND NOW THERE ARE TWINS IN THE PB!! JESSICA AND JACKLYN HAHAHAHA SO COOL. AND AMANDA THE SEC ONE SOUNDS LIKE STELLA. its amazing. im not even kidding you.

4 Ɛver 2gether, 1MGPB family. <3>

this holiday is no break though,

booklets of past year papers, mock tests after, camps, and a week of extra lessons...

UGH. need a good break. theres a time to rest too yknow ):

and this song, IS SO SAD. 

have you ever heard those songs where you can just feel the emotions fill through you?

like Bieber's That Should Be Me

this is another one where you can just break down and cry. and it makes you think. a lot. 

with that in mind, HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM HYUN JOONG OPPA! (gosh i sound so gay saying oppa HAHA)

❥ ❥ ❥  LOVE YOU LOTS LOTS LOTS. only korean guy i will ever fangirl for.

#HAPPYHYUNJOONGDAY!

i can't forget. i just can't. i've tried.

then again. i must be strong. for myself. 

during june camp, we wrote a note to our future selves. 

I hope my future self will be a stronger person...

ANYEONG!

lets rewind.

alright alright. i cheated. i just CANNOT miss the month of may in my archive): or it wont be nice anymore): hahaha

 SO MYE IS OVER!?!??!?!? and belive it or not, i did better than EOY even though i had like half the time i had to study.

idk how, but i need to improve each subject by 2 grades if i actually wanna get a 15 for prelims.
worried for the future. it has been so exhausting for the past months since school started..

BUT
right after MYE, drey crashed my house to watch Flower Boy Ramyun Shop HAHAHAHA. yeah, the main character is like. 3 years younger than the female lead. ew. and they end up together. aah love has no limit anyway...

Chi Os HAHAHAHA. ive never NEVER studied so much chinese in my life. It is as if these past few weeks of studying is even more than the past 10 years of studying for a chinese exam. LOL. im terrible.
CANT WAIT FOR THIS TO BE OVER.

anyo! oh wait, i found out there's no such thing as anyo, and its anyong HAHAHA.
<3 p="">

The Final Lap. The Final Scene.

AAAH. so today was my last Gala Night, which marks the end of my swimming career.
the memories. I'M HAVING A SENTIMENTAL MOMENT AGAIN.
and i'm really dead beat so..this emotional moment shall continue another day...but

I'm thankful for my coaches, the friends i've made throughout my journey, and SSC. If anyone gave me a chance to change club ever, i would never. Cos it was only here where the greatest memories and legends were made. The bonds we have made cannot be replaced. yeah we may be a small team, but hey. David defeated Goliath didn't he?

the performance was awesome (:
the last minute practice paid off. HAHA RIK. SARAH. AND I. WHOOP! Didn't regret doing it for my last gala.

btw isit gala night or nite? :p

<3 p="">anyo!

you have no effect on me no more. i have realised that. and i am thankful for that.

On to the next chapter;

I feel like i haven't blogged in ages HAHA. Was just talking to james about jellyhearts and how my URL came about..AND BAM I REALISED I HAVEN'T BLOGGED THIS MONTH. But yeah, April has been crazy. So here it goes...

HEATS
eh ma gosh i was seeded third. AGAIN. but this time yeah, i was already preparing myself for the worst HAHA. don't want a repeat of last year again now do we?

and LOL yup 100 free was HAHAHA. 31-33 split? 2 seconds apart is still acceptable..but...
AND I FINALLY GOT A PICTURE WITH BONG OMG. if the gf sees it, well, hell yeah good for you.

AND TO ALL YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE, when someone talks to you, don't just nod and nod RESPOND MAYBE. hint hint. OYJ. (:

.

FINALS
IT WAS SO EXCITING OMG. GOTTA TAKE LOTS OF PICTURES WITH ALL OLD FRIENDS AND STUFF since its my last year ): didn't getta find stacy or may though ): me sad. NEVERMIND. I SHALL HUNT THEM DOWN ANOTHER TIME HEHE.

 and oh, i realised i CANNOT warm up twice. it just drains my energy. haish. well. thats a lesson learnt that will never be proved useful for me ever again HAHA cos i'm done with swimming. (i'll get to the emotional part soon...)

AND WE WON SILVER FOR FREE RELAY BOO YEAH! WITH AN AWESOME TIMING OF 28.5! ok fine not that awesome. but i was happy. (:
medley didnt go that well..hmm pulled the team down ): but with great team mates they support you all the way regardless (: MGSWIM2013

100 free HAHAHA. 29.85- 33 split. who does a nearly 4 seconds split. oh, thats right. ME. seriously man my splits are amazing. as always. HAHAHA.
and i felt really bad for natasha ong cos she did an amazing timing of 59 but DQed! ):
but anyway, a silver for B div overall, and a bronze for C div. wasn't that bad overall. owned sports school as we wished for at least one division. hell yeah (:

AND SO MY EMOTIONAL MOMENT.
swimming has been part of my life ever since i was born. Started in the water since i was lets say 3, and to say competitive swimming is half my life is just an understatement. started racing since 5, at SSC. Born there, still there, forever there. Met Marina there, had always been my racing competitor since then, then at P2/P3 met Sam Yeo at RBSC. I remembering thinking she was some show-off person who changed costume and cap just cos she finished warming up. UNTIL i realised in the competitive world, that was just normal. HAHA. and Sam turned out to be a great friend. p5 - p6 would be the peak of my career i guess. p4/5 Stacy Tan and May, my 2 back competitors. We would ALWAYS end up swimming the same event. 1st, 2nd, 3rd would always revolve around us. It was a hell lot of fun (:
In a nutshell, swimming has been and will always be my life. As excited as i was at the start of the year to leave swimming to focus on studies, i'm kinda feeling really sad and emotional now): I JUST CANT BEAR TO.
the friends i've made, the memories shared. trainings will never be the same without these same friends. i will miss them. And hopefully we'll meet again in the future (':
I've got to say, both my immaturity and maturity has been nurtured in my swimming life. haha, the lessons learned, forever embedded in my heart <3 p="">
Next week at Gala Night would be my last time in the SSC Swim team! ah great memories. A decade spent, where i've seen the countless renovations it has had. The library, where we always fall asleep, or study in. The many meetings we've had in the board room, the many performances in the Grand Ballroom. haish.. i feel like half of me has been stripped away.. "/

AUDREYS SURPRISE
was a success!
hahaha as it fell on the same day of nationals, i woke up at 6 to crash her house and surprise her just before she left for school. HAHAHA IT WAS HILARIOUS.
AND JELLYHEARTS! need to learn how to make it soon...hmmm (:

looking back...I'm glad to have met the people i met. It is because of them i am who i am today. Bad or good experiences, i've got my takeaways (:
I appreciate my childhood. Well, on to the next 7 months of hardcore studying!
I won't disappear so fast lah of course, returning to the club every sunday when daddy eats breakfast HAHAHAHA. (:
and oh, since theres no training now, I HOPE TO KEEP FIT AND STAY HEALTHY AND ATTEMPT TO RUN EVERY WEEKEND WITH TONIC OR SOMETHING HAHAHA. hopefully. i will try. HAHAHA (:

<3 anyo="" p="">
i'll never forget, forever.

Fish out of the water.

So here I am I'm school..
On a Saturday... We're back for remedial, BUT SHE'S LATEEEEE.. I'm so tired): 'thought it was 830' .. Well forgive me, but there are 2 classes waiting for you.

It's the end of march! Time is seriously not stopping for anyone.. I really hope I survive April and May. School nationals in 17 days. AAAH ME SCARED. Can't wait for the hoodies and shirts though!(:
 But that means no napha at WCP! I somehow CANNOT run for nuts. Yeah I think the whole world knows that HAHA. Ironic right? Swimmer who can't run.

 So to all those who are dying out there and struggling to survive just another day of life, JIANCHI OKAY!! DETERMINATION GOES A LONG WAY! Oh and of course self discipline.

 Stay cool!(:
Anyo!

Why isn't the memory fading...

Just a glimpse...

Or maybe the idea of having you. Okay, i think i'm just in a very emotional state right now. i've gotta stop listening to this song. ITS MAKING ME SAD ):

so today, i thought i caught a glimpse of you. my hopes went up abit. but nah, always disappointed anyway.
I NEEDA PULL MYSELF TOGETHER.


3/3
we chilled for my birthday at Pepperoni's with cousins (: AND AND LO AND BEHOLD, CANDACE DREY AND CELENE APPEARS WITH A GIANT MONKEY BALLOON THING HEHE (: and cupcakes from pre. i wasn;t expecting that alright..
oh and i got a cupcake from qiqi and laura (: hehe 6 cupcakes for one birthday. dayum i'm one fat birthday girl HAHA BUT IT WAS SO GOOODDDD (:

16/3
okay so yesterday was Band[age] 5 where i realised its my first and last bandage i've ever/will be going to. It's actually pretty weird if you go think about it. I've been in this school for how many years and this is my first year. haha so i went with james, janyne, and drey. and yeshhh james was the only guy.. HAHA just a tiny tiny bit awkward.

OH AND SCHOOLING BEATS LOCHTE. 100fly. 54 VS 55..SHOCKERRRRR.. haha

so next weekend would be SNAG, and the first one where i wouldn't be taking part in.. i feel slightly guilty.. BUT OMG I AM SO STRESSED. like the whole of next week is filled.
mon tue : March camp
wed: chinese mock test paper 1 & 2 + candace's birthday
thu: prefect trainee camp
fri: lessons in school 8-12pm

MY ONLY FREE DAYS ARE THE WEEKEND. so isn't that just like any other week. oh the joy.

Time is ticking...

its been awhile since ive blogged..
 hahaha so here i am as usual once a month at least..
 CTS ARE OVER BABY.
 I'm really happy for my math as im improving slowly (:
 I'm beyond worried for my sciences though..
 so today was our O level registration thing. yep, i've decided to keep my trip science. CROSSING FINGERS!!

 so yesterday, i had a surprise birthday party organised by Kat and mummy..
 hahaha and collaborated with the cousins and the gang from school. it was a blast (: LOVE YALL!!

 and today, kitty kat and mi and di left for Sydney, leaving me alone.. ): which also means me taking public transport all over.. haha im such a spoilt brat..

 oh well my eyes are closing.. and im dying slowly. anyo!

 

do you speak dinosaur?

AND ITS ALREADY NEARING THE END OF JANUARY. time is passing to fast.
the stress is/has settled in, and i'm dying day by day. Amazing how i'm saying that and still managed to come here and blog. HAHA.
it's like. i dread school. but yet i dread training. but also at the same time i need those to keep me sane?
i've not had a free week for the past 26 days. Every week there is something messed up like tests, or some event that will take up a whole lot of time. Like if you ask me since when i've gone home and done nothing and felt free of stress? hmm. maybe like. primary school. 4 years ago.

And also, i'm thinking of not signing up for SNAG. like first time in..forever HAHA. dilemma mode now.
i thank god for my friends, family and everyone who has supported me through my everyday life. Those who make me laugh, those who fetch me around, those who have the patience to teach me and explain things. Really, these little things are what keep me sane, and make me who i am up till today.

I SHALL JIANCHI MAN. oh did i mention i'm spending my birthday alone this year? yea sweet sixteenth. alone.

anyo!

new year, new resolutions.

2012 passed like nobody's business.
At the start of 2012, i really thought that it would be a crap year, full of stress, and absolutely no fun. June just felt like yesterday. 2012 felt like just yesterday. Well, technically it was just yesterday HAHA.
But no matter how many things may have messed up, i gotta say 2012 is one of my best years.

So many things happened just in a year.
Things come and go, so appreciate what you have now, even the littlest things, and never ever take anything for grants, for they may disappear in just a blink of an eye.
Some things change for the best. Some for the worst. But we can't change the past, but just learn lessons from them right?

Looking back, i've had a great year regardless of all the down points. Good friends, Good jokes, Good memories. Gotten closer with the people i never thought i'd be close with. Drove apart from those who i never thought i would. But hey, that's life. Treasure what you have for now.

"People say you don't know what you've got until it's gone. Truth is, you knew what you had, you just never thought you'd lose it."

School starts, TOMORROW ): and i still can't believe we're sec4 already. When i started this blog 4 years ago, i was just p6, 12 years old. 
Let's kick start the year with a BOOMZ. All the best everyone!


AH O LEVELS YEAR. But nevermind, i'm determined to work hard. still unsure about trip science. Well, we'll see.


 

Anyo!