Riding Solo.

LAST DAY OF APRIL IS FINALLY HERE.
which means:
1. i have been procrastinating on this blogpost forever

2. i've been down under for about a month now...

I'm missing SG like mad i'm telling you. Char Kway Teow, Hokkien Mee, Chai Tao Kueh..

and my friends.. and most of all seeing singaporeans around me..

Here is literally stepping onto the homeland of china LOL. NO KIDDING.

My class is like 98% Chinese national while cal and I are the only non china persons there.

Yeah, some are nice. Some are just pure unfriendly or maybe their EQ naturally sucks.

There's not one genuine friend here. Like aside from my roommate Caroline and some lecture mates like andy(TH), angelia(ID), jack audrey melanie(MY), elise(HK). All great fun, but you see, they all have their own cliques..yes we may be close friends but not those close close kind of friends you'll go shopping with etc yknow? Don't even get me started with the Singaporeans...

I feel like i'm drowning each day. And i'm just afraid this optimism and enthusiasm will die out soon enough. I may laugh in class, but its just those short laughter at a joke ish..

I miss laughing so freely, so lively, falling of my chair in the midst...

So thank gawd i'm somewhat of an introvert where i like my room, my tv, and my desk.

Leave me alone in a library i can survive. Leave me alone during lunch break, i'll survive. Leave me alone at the easter fair, i'll survive. What i realised is i've been spending so much solo time on my own venturing whatever i'm kinda comfortable with it. But sometimes, it gets lonely. Just sometimes.

My phone is my next best friend too; music and apps really can keep you going. 

Kat says that most of her close friends and even best friends are from church. Now if you know me, i'm not all that of a religious person that i thought i was, and neither am i all christian-y with the whole jesus thing. Hence, no matter how badly i want to make friends, using church as a social platform is just way wrong..

I'm just seriously at loss now.

Sometimes, i feel like i could just break down and cry.

STUDIES...
Ain't going that great either..sure our english may be good..but hell am i struggling with economics and accounting..

Finding time to study is another thing as well. Oh lord please save me..

One month down, 7 to go.

Also, I'm actually considering picking up swimming again...
Nationals just passed, and seeing all the pictures and victories..THE FEELS MAN.


anyeong~