Emotional Turmoil;

starting this post with a happy note,
EXAMS ARE OVER BABY!! okay lah, not that official, but yknow, who studies for English right? Somehow i think that despite how much i say this, i'm gonna regret it HAHAHA.
but really, i highly doubt i'm gonna study for it. like for the past week i have been staying up till 130 and waking up early to go to school at 9 just to study. it ain't a pretty cycle. it's a tiring one. do you know how exhausting it gets at time?

BUT YES, FINALLY,
all the major subjects are over!! i'm most happy with economics and legal paper really. Math was so-so. Like the questions i knew i didn't know how to do, i really didn't know how to do HAHA. so even when i had 15min extra time, all i could do is stare at those questions, but thankfully i spotted a question i absolutely left out lol!
accounting was the worst out of the lot. I'll be surprise if i get above a C. Hopefully i get at least a B!?!?!?! Ironically i was most confident in accounting but lol..guess we can conclude that we cannot count our eggs before the chickens are hatched..

Today i had a very long talk with mummy over the phone..1h 30min HAHA. Exceeded the usual 30min.
Basically, i just want all of you people out there to think about things that really matter, things that are physically there, things that you already have in your grasp, and don't ever take them for granted. Some days they may be there, and others they will not be. You just don't know when that day will come. Hence, i don't know, i just think a lot, and i hate it when people talk about death too early, when it is clearly not their time, when it makes me think that one day anything can go wrong and in a blink of an eye, they're not there anymore.
I try to get this message to my sis. I need to get this message to her, and the rest of you, the world.

Why do people care about the superficial, the non-existent popularity, the fake image they paint themselves when it is not truly what they care about and what they are all about.
Because society simply forces us to conform to what they demand for, not what we are comfortable with.
I believe there are always two sides to a story; as there are always two sides to a coin.

The world is spinning, time is passing. Stop for a moment to look at what you have, to look at how lucky you are, to see that life has given you the opportunity to do something. Treasure it.




ALSO,
HAHAHA I'M FINALLY NOT POSTING AT THE END OF THE MONTH. Cos well, i have time now.
I've got a new roommate! sort of -ish. She is only staying for about 10days because her homestay is not ready yet. But she's really nice! Once she leaves, hopefully there won't be anyone..Cos it's very hard to find someone as nice as her :/ She chose her English name CiCi (Sissy)..so i told her what it sounded like and what the locals here may misinterpret it as haha! Yes, the PRCs here literally choose their own name, and apparently they choose their birth date as well. Majority of their birthdays are not their real ones. Trust me. HAHA. More than you can imagine..weird huh..what parents would do to post their daughter a year early or later..

stay safe!
winter is freezing now..in the midst of it..
anyeong!

PS. now that exams are over, I AM GONNA FINALLY CONTINUE TO LEARN TO WRITE KOREAN YAAAY HAHAHA.

take a breath, and look in the mirror, do you like you?