Saturday, August 27, 2016

Wrecked Ship.

27 days down, 13 weeks till homebound!
Somehow after 3 semesters, this is the worst one of the lot. I guess most of the stress comes from having 3 laws, with the constant burden and reminder that you'll never be done with your readings, in which you sacrifice your social life, and your sleep. Its the prism dilemma, where you always have to give up something, suffer a detriment, to enjoy the benefits of another. And most of the times we make the wrong decisions, but that's opportunity cost for you ladies and gentleman, once the decision is made there's no turning back. Many a times i learn that the hard way, choosing procrastination over my priorities.




It's not all rainbows and butterflies. Nor is it a bed of roses. 
What we post online, or even what we gush on about our lives to others, is what we want them to think. Of course not intentionally, but it is what we remember and hold dearly to our hearts, and really, it is what people ask about- which normally consists of all the good stuff, all the happy endings, hence seemingly coming off as if you're going on about in this world with perfect blessings all around us, perfect house, perfect family, and that our life in itself is perfect.

But here's the funny thing, people show you the happy side, but you never really know what's going on behind that picture. A click is all it takes to capture a happy moment, but you never really bother to see what happens after that one click. Life is more than just that one click. Life moves on is what i'm saying.

Now, it is your duty to not let your picture be of lies, to be merely a facade, hiding all emotions behind it. Social media is queen of this. There I was, a victim, fooled by the perfect portrayal of what should and should not be.

HOLD UP HOLD UP HOLD UP. I'M OVER THIS.
As I thought about this longer, I stumbled upon a revelation.
I always go on laughing about my friends (or really just one friend) who have their lives revolving around something, be it work, education, their partner, Pokemon Go. I always mock them- saying that its not healthy, they don't have any balance, they're gonna be a wreck. Reality is, I am this wreck too. The ship has sailed, hit an iceberg, and now its slowly sinking. Now before this ship goes completely down under, I gotta stop it. And its not too late to save it. Or so I hope.
Its foundation is weak; it is fragile, and vulnerable. But only for now.
The freaking ocean is so damn big, there's so much more out there. Don't confine yourself. and to go out there and venture forth, this is definitely not the way.

anyeong!

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