lets rewind.

alright alright. i cheated. i just CANNOT miss the month of may in my archive): or it wont be nice anymore): hahaha

 SO MYE IS OVER!?!??!?!? and belive it or not, i did better than EOY even though i had like half the time i had to study.

idk how, but i need to improve each subject by 2 grades if i actually wanna get a 15 for prelims.
worried for the future. it has been so exhausting for the past months since school started..

BUT
right after MYE, drey crashed my house to watch Flower Boy Ramyun Shop HAHAHAHA. yeah, the main character is like. 3 years younger than the female lead. ew. and they end up together. aah love has no limit anyway...

Chi Os HAHAHAHA. ive never NEVER studied so much chinese in my life. It is as if these past few weeks of studying is even more than the past 10 years of studying for a chinese exam. LOL. im terrible.
CANT WAIT FOR THIS TO BE OVER.

anyo! oh wait, i found out there's no such thing as anyo, and its anyong HAHAHA.
<3 p="">

The Final Lap. The Final Scene.

AAAH. so today was my last Gala Night, which marks the end of my swimming career.
the memories. I'M HAVING A SENTIMENTAL MOMENT AGAIN.
and i'm really dead beat so..this emotional moment shall continue another day...but

I'm thankful for my coaches, the friends i've made throughout my journey, and SSC. If anyone gave me a chance to change club ever, i would never. Cos it was only here where the greatest memories and legends were made. The bonds we have made cannot be replaced. yeah we may be a small team, but hey. David defeated Goliath didn't he?

the performance was awesome (:
the last minute practice paid off. HAHA RIK. SARAH. AND I. WHOOP! Didn't regret doing it for my last gala.

btw isit gala night or nite? :p

<3 p="">anyo!

you have no effect on me no more. i have realised that. and i am thankful for that.

On to the next chapter;

I feel like i haven't blogged in ages HAHA. Was just talking to james about jellyhearts and how my URL came about..AND BAM I REALISED I HAVEN'T BLOGGED THIS MONTH. But yeah, April has been crazy. So here it goes...

HEATS
eh ma gosh i was seeded third. AGAIN. but this time yeah, i was already preparing myself for the worst HAHA. don't want a repeat of last year again now do we?

and LOL yup 100 free was HAHAHA. 31-33 split? 2 seconds apart is still acceptable..but...
AND I FINALLY GOT A PICTURE WITH BONG OMG. if the gf sees it, well, hell yeah good for you.

AND TO ALL YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE, when someone talks to you, don't just nod and nod RESPOND MAYBE. hint hint. OYJ. (:

.

FINALS
IT WAS SO EXCITING OMG. GOTTA TAKE LOTS OF PICTURES WITH ALL OLD FRIENDS AND STUFF since its my last year ): didn't getta find stacy or may though ): me sad. NEVERMIND. I SHALL HUNT THEM DOWN ANOTHER TIME HEHE.

 and oh, i realised i CANNOT warm up twice. it just drains my energy. haish. well. thats a lesson learnt that will never be proved useful for me ever again HAHA cos i'm done with swimming. (i'll get to the emotional part soon...)

AND WE WON SILVER FOR FREE RELAY BOO YEAH! WITH AN AWESOME TIMING OF 28.5! ok fine not that awesome. but i was happy. (:
medley didnt go that well..hmm pulled the team down ): but with great team mates they support you all the way regardless (: MGSWIM2013

100 free HAHAHA. 29.85- 33 split. who does a nearly 4 seconds split. oh, thats right. ME. seriously man my splits are amazing. as always. HAHAHA.
and i felt really bad for natasha ong cos she did an amazing timing of 59 but DQed! ):
but anyway, a silver for B div overall, and a bronze for C div. wasn't that bad overall. owned sports school as we wished for at least one division. hell yeah (:

AND SO MY EMOTIONAL MOMENT.
swimming has been part of my life ever since i was born. Started in the water since i was lets say 3, and to say competitive swimming is half my life is just an understatement. started racing since 5, at SSC. Born there, still there, forever there. Met Marina there, had always been my racing competitor since then, then at P2/P3 met Sam Yeo at RBSC. I remembering thinking she was some show-off person who changed costume and cap just cos she finished warming up. UNTIL i realised in the competitive world, that was just normal. HAHA. and Sam turned out to be a great friend. p5 - p6 would be the peak of my career i guess. p4/5 Stacy Tan and May, my 2 back competitors. We would ALWAYS end up swimming the same event. 1st, 2nd, 3rd would always revolve around us. It was a hell lot of fun (:
In a nutshell, swimming has been and will always be my life. As excited as i was at the start of the year to leave swimming to focus on studies, i'm kinda feeling really sad and emotional now): I JUST CANT BEAR TO.
the friends i've made, the memories shared. trainings will never be the same without these same friends. i will miss them. And hopefully we'll meet again in the future (':
I've got to say, both my immaturity and maturity has been nurtured in my swimming life. haha, the lessons learned, forever embedded in my heart <3 p="">
Next week at Gala Night would be my last time in the SSC Swim team! ah great memories. A decade spent, where i've seen the countless renovations it has had. The library, where we always fall asleep, or study in. The many meetings we've had in the board room, the many performances in the Grand Ballroom. haish.. i feel like half of me has been stripped away.. "/

AUDREYS SURPRISE
was a success!
hahaha as it fell on the same day of nationals, i woke up at 6 to crash her house and surprise her just before she left for school. HAHAHA IT WAS HILARIOUS.
AND JELLYHEARTS! need to learn how to make it soon...hmmm (:

looking back...I'm glad to have met the people i met. It is because of them i am who i am today. Bad or good experiences, i've got my takeaways (:
I appreciate my childhood. Well, on to the next 7 months of hardcore studying!
I won't disappear so fast lah of course, returning to the club every sunday when daddy eats breakfast HAHAHAHA. (:
and oh, since theres no training now, I HOPE TO KEEP FIT AND STAY HEALTHY AND ATTEMPT TO RUN EVERY WEEKEND WITH TONIC OR SOMETHING HAHAHA. hopefully. i will try. HAHAHA (:

<3 anyo="" p="">
i'll never forget, forever.

Fish out of the water.

So here I am I'm school..
On a Saturday... We're back for remedial, BUT SHE'S LATEEEEE.. I'm so tired): 'thought it was 830' .. Well forgive me, but there are 2 classes waiting for you.

It's the end of march! Time is seriously not stopping for anyone.. I really hope I survive April and May. School nationals in 17 days. AAAH ME SCARED. Can't wait for the hoodies and shirts though!(:
 But that means no napha at WCP! I somehow CANNOT run for nuts. Yeah I think the whole world knows that HAHA. Ironic right? Swimmer who can't run.

 So to all those who are dying out there and struggling to survive just another day of life, JIANCHI OKAY!! DETERMINATION GOES A LONG WAY! Oh and of course self discipline.

 Stay cool!(:
Anyo!

Why isn't the memory fading...

Just a glimpse...

Or maybe the idea of having you. Okay, i think i'm just in a very emotional state right now. i've gotta stop listening to this song. ITS MAKING ME SAD ):

so today, i thought i caught a glimpse of you. my hopes went up abit. but nah, always disappointed anyway.
I NEEDA PULL MYSELF TOGETHER.


3/3
we chilled for my birthday at Pepperoni's with cousins (: AND AND LO AND BEHOLD, CANDACE DREY AND CELENE APPEARS WITH A GIANT MONKEY BALLOON THING HEHE (: and cupcakes from pre. i wasn;t expecting that alright..
oh and i got a cupcake from qiqi and laura (: hehe 6 cupcakes for one birthday. dayum i'm one fat birthday girl HAHA BUT IT WAS SO GOOODDDD (:

16/3
okay so yesterday was Band[age] 5 where i realised its my first and last bandage i've ever/will be going to. It's actually pretty weird if you go think about it. I've been in this school for how many years and this is my first year. haha so i went with james, janyne, and drey. and yeshhh james was the only guy.. HAHA just a tiny tiny bit awkward.

OH AND SCHOOLING BEATS LOCHTE. 100fly. 54 VS 55..SHOCKERRRRR.. haha

so next weekend would be SNAG, and the first one where i wouldn't be taking part in.. i feel slightly guilty.. BUT OMG I AM SO STRESSED. like the whole of next week is filled.
mon tue : March camp
wed: chinese mock test paper 1 & 2 + candace's birthday
thu: prefect trainee camp
fri: lessons in school 8-12pm

MY ONLY FREE DAYS ARE THE WEEKEND. so isn't that just like any other week. oh the joy.

Time is ticking...

its been awhile since ive blogged..
 hahaha so here i am as usual once a month at least..
 CTS ARE OVER BABY.
 I'm really happy for my math as im improving slowly (:
 I'm beyond worried for my sciences though..
 so today was our O level registration thing. yep, i've decided to keep my trip science. CROSSING FINGERS!!

 so yesterday, i had a surprise birthday party organised by Kat and mummy..
 hahaha and collaborated with the cousins and the gang from school. it was a blast (: LOVE YALL!!

 and today, kitty kat and mi and di left for Sydney, leaving me alone.. ): which also means me taking public transport all over.. haha im such a spoilt brat..

 oh well my eyes are closing.. and im dying slowly. anyo!

 

do you speak dinosaur?

AND ITS ALREADY NEARING THE END OF JANUARY. time is passing to fast.
the stress is/has settled in, and i'm dying day by day. Amazing how i'm saying that and still managed to come here and blog. HAHA.
it's like. i dread school. but yet i dread training. but also at the same time i need those to keep me sane?
i've not had a free week for the past 26 days. Every week there is something messed up like tests, or some event that will take up a whole lot of time. Like if you ask me since when i've gone home and done nothing and felt free of stress? hmm. maybe like. primary school. 4 years ago.

And also, i'm thinking of not signing up for SNAG. like first time in..forever HAHA. dilemma mode now.
i thank god for my friends, family and everyone who has supported me through my everyday life. Those who make me laugh, those who fetch me around, those who have the patience to teach me and explain things. Really, these little things are what keep me sane, and make me who i am up till today.

I SHALL JIANCHI MAN. oh did i mention i'm spending my birthday alone this year? yea sweet sixteenth. alone.

anyo!