Here's to 2015.

New Years was not. fun. at. all.

Like yeah sure watchnight service, starting the year blessed with the holy spirit and all. But the thing is that those who know me well enough, I was never a holy person, but i've always kept an open mind, and as always I've tried to accept the whole Christianity thingum, so I just tag along. But really, spending an hour talking about the events held in 2015..AND not even having a countdown?! AND even at 12 no best wishes? Just the announcing of the new church committee? Really? No matter how fking holy you are, you start the year off with a HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!! Not some shit stunt like that.
Ugh. Basically it was a terrible end. I spent the last hour plus of 2014 on my phone trying to stay awake.

Overall, 2014 was a bad year.
It flew past so fast. Not because of how fun it was, but because of how mundane it was. Day after day I went through the same routine, as if life had no meaning to it and I was just living it watching each day past for the sake of making time fly. I could honestly say 2014 was one of the worst years i've had. Not only did i leave all my loved ones friends and family, joined a new "civillisation" with new people new environment, but also, I felt like I wasted one year of my life. Like I was not living my life. I was just drifting through it. I did not feel anything, I was just numb to everything.
To have reached this conclusion is really just appalling and disappointing to see my year spent so unsatisfyingly.

Change is good. But sometimes they are bad too.
Then again, I guess everything happens for a reason. That's why I always spend my time thinking what that reason could be. Everyone are trying to find answers aren't they? But what you find may not be what you wanted. And sometimes things- the truth, are better left unfound and undiscovered, because it'll be safer for your heart, yourself.

I won't regret the many friendships made, some broken, some mended. Sometimes unexpected things are just round the corner. As for you, you're always that unsolved puzzle in my life. I'm not sure when I will be able to complete that puzzle, or if there is one puzzle piece lost and I will just never solve it. You're unexpected, unreadable, unpredictable. I really don't know what I'm going to do with you.

Here's a shout out to Bryan:
thank you for still stopping by after what feels like a gazillion years. What if I change my blog URL one day? watcha gonna do ;) HAHA ANYWAY>>>
HAHA hi bryan. I know what you're thinking. But for now, I'll tell you to worry about yourself first kay? I'll sort my shit out. Soon. For now we're in the same messed up boat. Best wishes to 2015 and hopefully you'll get out of this boat soon. As for me, I think I should just buy over this boat because I won't be leaving it anytime soon I'm quite sure.

I'm thinking bout' how people fall in love in mysterious ways, maybe just the touch of a hand.





Here's wishing the bestest of the best wishes to everyone out there, hoping you have a wonderful 2015, and may this year be even better than the last.

As how many of us would start the year with a New Year Resolution, I'd just like one simple wish.
Make this year count.
I was already thinking of starting a bucket list notebook this year (which is kinda like a resolution kind of thing) but a limited to your lifetime goal kind of list, AND I'M REALLY EXCITED TO GET STARTED ON IT. and I'll write down the date and maybe have a few signing of the people i completed it with. It'll be cool. (:

Here's to 2015.

anyeong!